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  • Reply Todd Doherty June 13, 2017 at 5:18 pm

    Aaron – I don’t really know why I am so compelled to read your entire blog and leave a comment…..I barely know you. We met at a corporate event you covered. Your story and outlook on life has made an impact on me….that must be it! Your story is like a great (but tragic) novel and I love the ending. You deserve the very best in life. You have earned it. Your messages about life, faith, truth and more are ones that everyone needs to hear. Not everyone will understand it or take it away, but if only a few understand then you have made this a better place to live.

    You told me that now “everything is sweeter” and I can’t help but to think about that one statement over and over. Thank you

    Enjoy life’s sweetness.

    Todd

  • Reply dan May 13, 2017 at 6:36 am

    hope ur health is good.
    Why have u abandonded ur blog and followers here. we supported u during your ordeal

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 19, 2018 at 8:38 pm

      Hi Dan,
      I hope all is well. I apologize for leaving my blog. It’s interesting but after all that I went through, when health finally came my way, it was extremely difficult to even look at my blog. It took me a year to see this. I am so grateful for all the people that supported me and helped me fight through this battle. I feel ready to post a blog again and plan to in the upcoming month. Thank you again for following and your support. I definitely owe everyone a post with an update.

  • Reply D.S. February 5, 2017 at 11:04 pm

    I happened to stumble across your story on google, my husband was just diagnosed at UCSD with t-cell lymphoblastic lymphoma as well. We are a part of a similar or very possibly the same clinical trial as it sounds like you are. We are about 2 months into chemo and it’s a doozie. Just wanted you guys to know there’s someone in your city in the exact same boat. Hope you’re doing well!

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 19, 2017 at 12:18 am

      Hi Devon,
      I am sorry for my major delay. I just saw your reply as I had to leave my blog for a number of months. How is he doing? I would be more than happy to come meet him if he or you are looking for support. I know I could have used the help. Please let me know if this is something either if you are interested in. Is he in patient or outpatient right now? Please feel free to email me direct at aaron@truephotography.com Does he have Dr Weeidelwledt?

  • Reply d washington December 28, 2016 at 9:13 am

    where are you? why no posts since August?

  • Reply Peter Krone October 5, 2016 at 8:06 am

    Hi Aaron, I met your parents in 2014 in Utah. Last year, I was diagnosed with colon cancer, got surgery, chemo and radiation. Now I’m considered healthy again. This year we travelled through the US again and wanted to visit your parents in San Diego, but I was not able to contact them :-( Please say hello from Peter and Barbara, Germany

  • Reply Linda Lungren August 31, 2016 at 2:32 pm

    Happy belated birthday, Aaron. Yes, as we get older and wiser, we realize each added year is a blessing. May you have many more blessings!

  • Reply Ellen Claxton August 5, 2016 at 6:13 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron!!! ❤️

  • Reply Patricia Norvell August 4, 2016 at 12:16 am

    Happy birthday, Aaron! Welcome to the “Survivor Club” (thriving conquerors)! I never had a moment where I didn’t think you’d be one of us ;) (keep on doing what you’re doing!)
    Thank you for the invite to your party. Unfortunately, we won’t be able to make it, but we’ll be with you in spirit! Patricia :)

  • Reply Frankie August 2, 2016 at 7:21 am

    Happy Birthday Aaron and I know it will be a good year and you can join the ranks of us that can say I’m a survivor. You are much loved❤️Frankie

  • Reply Dianne Park August 1, 2016 at 3:13 pm

    Happy Birthday! Very happy you are feeling well enough to celebrate this milestone. Thanks for the invite but August 7 is our 45th Wedding Anniversary! I do believe we will be celebrating differently! Best wishes to you for a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

  • Reply Mimi August 1, 2016 at 1:30 pm

    Happy 40th! I am so, so happy your are doing well! I know it was a rocky road but hopefully only smooth sailing ahead for you now!

  • Reply Tiffani Alvidrez August 1, 2016 at 1:23 pm

    Happy birthday, Aaron! Thank you for sharing your life with us via your blog. My daughter made you a blanket (an extra-extra long one) :) shortly after a mutual friend, Kim, told us about your diagnosis and pending treatment. Maddie will be thrilled to hear that you’re planning for what sounds like a spectacular, yet low-key, birthday party. Enjoy your day! We will be with you in spirit!

  • Reply Lynn May 29, 2016 at 8:06 am

    Thank you for your support and keeping us in your thoughts. The fear is ever present as we keep fighting this war! You have been remarkable through your battle and have shown us a way of how to “beat it” even at times that it is winning. Fight on!

  • Reply Marsha May 10, 2016 at 10:53 am

    Thank you for not being afraid of the elephant in the room. Thank you for being a friend, a cousin a cheerleader and our white light. One step at a time. Love you Aaron

  • Reply Mary Ganster May 8, 2016 at 10:53 am

    Thank you Aaron for sharing your inspirational insight. My heart sang when we saw you biking with Baby B and what a joy it was to hear of you and April visiting your Aunt & Uncle in GA! My my, who would have thunk it a year ago! Aunt Rachel is such a Lovely woman with a generous heart. I pray the Good Lord continues to Bless you both. With the abundance of Love that surrounds you, I have faith you both will be “ok”. Love to you, April & Brandon. Mary & Hank

  • Reply Diane May 7, 2016 at 12:01 pm

    Aaron, I have always loved your positive attitude since you have been going through this fight with Cancer. I agree with Shosh you are such a great writer and I enjoy reading your Blogs. I just found out my best friend in Houston, Texas who I have been friends with for 56 years is starting her fight with L
    ung & Brain cancer. I was sorry to hear about your Aunt Rachel. Your Mom told me while we were walking Brighton thru the Park yesterday. Hope the best for her! If you thought about every thing that could go wrong we would all be in a crazy house. Keep up the good work Aaron. We love Ya

  • Reply Normand Precourt May 7, 2016 at 8:33 am

    Great update. As others said – profound. I particularly appreciate your definition of faith as the ability to have confidence in your decisions. I believe you made many good ones. Let’s all take take notice. My best to and your family. Norm

  • Reply Shoshana May 6, 2016 at 9:42 pm

    Seriously, how did you get to be so smart AND such a talented writer? I am impressed beyond words with your insight and knowledge about life and the mind.
    You know me and know that I have spent a lot of countless hours fearing things that are out of my control. I try every day to put those fears aside, and I have definitely gotten better at it. My biggest fear at this moment is that you didn’t mention in your post that Brighton will be ok. Haha just kidding. However being a mom now can bring a whole new level of fears that I didn’t know existed, or I knew existed, but didn’t grasp the depth of it. Am I feeding him enough? Should he sleep more? Do his eyes look red? What is that spot on his face…is he allergic to something he ate? …and on and on. Then I look at how happy he is and I put all that aside so I can enjoy every second of it. What a miracle baby he is and what perfect timing when we found out I was pregnant, so he could save your life. Despite the tough things our family has gone through over the years, we are so blessed and I am so grateful for every day we get to spend together. I will take your advice and strive to bust through the fears to enjoy everything I have. Love you little brother.

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 6, 2016 at 10:18 pm

      Hey Thanks Shosh. I appreciate the compliment. I love you and love my Nephew! Brighton will be ok and so will you and Brian :) Whatever life throws our way, we will all be ok

  • Reply Kristin Q May 6, 2016 at 6:45 pm

    You are the Best Aaron. I am SO grateful to have a friend like you. Thank you for sharing your battle, your fears, your journey and your faith with us all.
    Thank you for your amazing courage, bright light and huge heart and sharing your cancer battle out loud. You are helping so many people <3

    When I feel fearful, I call you! Haha! Or I pause, acknowledge and face the fear and I try to find my way back to believing in the Universe, in the journey, in myself, in truth….and eventually I find my way back to the flip side of the fear. Love.
    I love the acronym for FEAR • False Evidence Appearing Real.
    How wonderful it would be to recognize fear for what it is immediately, and not taking a 4 day trip with it!

    My fear right now is saying my fear out loud. Even as a survivor myself….I am not as courageous as you, my friend.
    Love you tons xo
    Kristin Q

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 6, 2016 at 7:07 pm

      False Evidence Appearing Real I like that :)

    • Reply Shoshana May 6, 2016 at 9:29 pm

      Love that acronym for FEAR! Thanks for sharing!

  • Reply Mike Hogan May 6, 2016 at 5:23 pm

    I’m blessed that I don’t have any major fears at the moment but when I do, all I can do, is to have faith and do the next indicated thing. I’m with you on that. I’m glad you are maintaining!

    • Reply C. Eitzen May 9, 2016 at 4:07 pm

      Did you go to SCPA?

  • Reply Dena Malasek May 6, 2016 at 5:05 pm

    Great writing Aaron, stay strong, “Faith over Fear” and you’ll always come out on top! Your posts are always inspirational and make me take a minute and think. All the best to you and sending you big hugs!!

  • Reply M.J. Adamucci May 6, 2016 at 4:45 pm

    Aaron you are so amazing! Yes, after we become a survivor, our lives change.
    We appreciate living so much more than ever before. But along with that comes all
    the fears because we now really know how precious life is and how easily it can be
    taken away. You are doing all the right things and with time, healing takes place and
    the fear will lessen. keep doing what you are doing and take hope that modern
    medical science is improving so much, and we are very lucky to be a part of that.
    May you have a long happy remission and a joyful content life.
    MJ, Adamucci (NHL survivor)

  • Reply Kenneth Greene May 6, 2016 at 4:13 pm

    Aaron, thank you for your words. As you know they touch me deeply. You write beautifully, putting into words what is unspoken yet inside of us. Your words remind me to stay present and reminds us to stay present and be here for each other today. We love you.
    Rachel and Kenneth

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 6, 2016 at 4:23 pm

      I believe in you both and love you. You both will tackle this new challenge and I will be there whenever you need me.

  • feldster
    Reply feldster May 6, 2016 at 4:07 pm

    My fear is nobody writing on this wall :) Go for it!!

  • Reply Kristin February 12, 2016 at 7:36 pm

    Aprils drsigns are so beautiful and fresh ? I love her style!

  • Reply Brett Gottlieb February 9, 2016 at 5:22 pm

    Love the new site, congrats on that…Also, love the support for LLS…I am training with LLS for a half marathon in San Diego later this year and am raising money for this great organization as well. Best wishes Brett

  • Reply Susan January 16, 2016 at 12:14 pm

    Hi Arron
    This is Sue here We met at Thornton hospital where I was also being treated for Lymphoma. I’ve enjoyed reading your blogs and have gone through many of the same things including the headaches (though not as severe and I can take a pain reliever, tramadal. I’m also very tired about once a week but I simply curl up and sleep. Unlike you my labs are not very good and it seems as though I am always needing magnesium IV drip. You’re a good writer and express yourself well. Will try & keep in touch. Thinking of you a lot and hoping you feel an improvement soon Sue

  • Reply Linda Lungren December 17, 2015 at 8:06 am

    We are ALL gaining insight into our lives through your experiences–reestablishing values; reprioritizing our lives; rethinking what is important; etc. I certainly HOPE (and pray and wish and plead) that 2016 will bring this fantastic combination of drugs that will manage your pain, continue to maintain the absence of cancer, and bring you the best quality of life possible. I HOPE (and pray and wish and plead) that the doctors are given the research to know what is best for YOUR recovery. I walk by your studio on Market St. as I do my daily walk and think of you often. Best wishes, Aaron, for a bountiful Holiday season and a Fabulous, Healthy 2016 and forever!!

  • Reply Diane December 17, 2015 at 7:50 am

    Wow Aaron! We are so sorry that you have to go through all of this. Your our Hero Aaron! When I read your blogs it brings me back to reality and teaches me what is really important in life too. We know you will get through all of this Aaron because you will do what need to be done to get this all behind you. Our thought’s and prayers are with you. We love you Aaron.

    Love Bob & Diane

  • Reply Pat Veth December 16, 2015 at 2:05 pm

    Amazing as always. I cannot thank you enough for sharing your stories and struggles with us. I take great comfort and validation knowing I am not alone on this physical and emotional journey. I really hope you consider publishing your story someday. It would have been a wonderful discovery to have found your published writings and humor when this journey started.
    All the best and thank you again for your inspiration and perspective.

  • Reply Paula December 16, 2015 at 11:47 am

    I’m so glad you are sharing your experiences. It helps us to understand what you and so many others are going through. Until you or a loved one go through it, you just have no idea. We get busy and forget to be thankful for the little things. Thank you for the reminder. It’s important. Sending a giant hug. P

  • Reply Donna Gonzalez December 16, 2015 at 11:03 am

    Aaron keep your strong positive attitude … I am sure it is very difficult … But boy what you have gone
    through is unthinkable …keep it up… Best wishes to you, April,Brandon and family !!!!!! Hugs and love,The Gonzalez’s

  • Reply Sarah Maciel December 16, 2015 at 10:46 am

    I’ve been waiting for this update! Please know you are in our thoughts. Lots of prayers & love to you & your family!

  • Reply Sharyl December 3, 2015 at 8:08 pm

    Hey Aaron…..We wanted you to know that you are ALWAYS in our prayers! This thing that’s happening now with your severe headaches just plain sucks and we pray that it goes away and you’re feeling better soon…hopefully even right this second! : ) You have been amazing through this whole process and we truly feel your strength in your posts. YOU’VE GOT THIS! We are sending lots of love to you, April and your whole family!! Love & prayers my friend, Dan & Sharyl (Lisa’s BFF) xoxoxoxoxo

  • Reply Kristin Q November 15, 2015 at 12:22 pm

    My friend,
    I am SO happy to see you writing again. You teach me (all of us) so much and I was reminded of Victor Frankl’s quote:
    “Everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms—to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.”
    Even through your darkest times, you find the flicker of light and continue to hold that light up to illuminate others paths.
    Thank you for you, your friendship, your insights and your huge heart.
    Love you
    Kristin Q

  • Reply Ellen November 12, 2015 at 2:51 pm

    Hey, Aaron, our family has been challenged with the big C in so many ways this year…all were diagnosed as incurable. I have shared each and everyone of your blog posts with them hoping they would be inspired. You were more than an inspiration, you were a life line to one. I told you early on that YOU were going to make it. Tough as the road has been and will be, you will make it. I have huge faith in that. But along the way, your words sustained another who was marched to the breaking point and then brought back, and has recently(today) received news the what was incurable is actually GONE. Only the two of you and others who have faced this unbearable challenge actually know the meaning and joy in those words, but I am dancing with joy for both of you and all others on their way to a remission. Your courage has meant courage to so many others. Thank you! Love to you, Sunshine!

  • Reply Frankie hartwell November 11, 2015 at 9:54 am

    Aaron, you have been so blessed, not only with your wonderful good news but also with the new insight that will now change the journey you will continue to go through. Those of us that have been through life changing experiences are able to go through the rest of their life more filled with joy and understanding of our true purpose and path that we must travel, it’s only a shame that it takes something so extrem to find it and yet some still do not, they end up bitter and resentful, you are the lucky one. We love you Aaron

  • Reply Luz cardenas November 11, 2015 at 1:05 am

    Aaron I went through the same thing you are going through..But believe me it will get better,,little by little take your time..i have been on Remission since 2003 . And also about finding out who your real friends are its better to know now..it happens to everybody i guess people that are not sick just don’t want to feel bad or bothered with sick people..But it’s like you said ..you don’t want BS in your life..I enjoyed every day of my life with my children and now with my grandchildren..God is good!!

  • Reply Harriet Wolpoff November 10, 2015 at 11:34 am

    Aaron–you do make people’s lives better by sharing your wise reflections. Thank you and Gd bless!

  • Reply Lowell Tindell November 10, 2015 at 11:20 am

    Good post, Aaron. Thanks for sharing your insight. “Appreciate what you have” should be up there with guiding principals like the golden rule.

    Lowell

  • Reply Stefanie Muse November 10, 2015 at 10:44 am

    Once again Aaron with your blog and taking the 5 minutes to read it, makes me look at life different, so easy to get caught up and pulled away from what is really important. Thanks for simply being YOU.
    Stef

  • Reply Susan Macey October 3, 2015 at 6:06 am

    You’ve been on my mind – and this morning I went to your blog site and read the most amazing news – I am so happy for you and April and the rest of your family – continue healing – you did it!
    April, a big hug to you. You and Aaron are an inspirational partnership for sure! Susan Macey (sending positive thoughts and prayers from Denver)

  • Reply Josh Kopelman September 9, 2015 at 9:13 am

    Incredible to read your news…absolutely amazing. You are an example of how attitude can make such a difference….you are an inspiration. Love & hugs amigo….

  • Reply Robin September 8, 2015 at 9:30 am

    Yay Aaron!!! Oh my goodness that’s such fantastic news! You’re amazing!!

  • Reply Marianna Ogando September 6, 2015 at 2:21 pm

    I am so happy! What a journey and what an example you are.
    Xoxo from NYC!
    Marianna Ogando

  • Reply Mimi September 5, 2015 at 11:16 am

    So, so thrilled to hear your great news, Aaron! I knew you’d reach this point! Xoxo, Mimi

  • Reply Mary September 4, 2015 at 7:40 am

    Wow, what incredible news!! I’m thrilled to hear this and so happy for your family. Now get out there and watch those baseball games:)

  • Reply Ellie September 4, 2015 at 7:23 am

    Fabulous News……Tough guy. It takes a village and you did it. So so happy to hear that you beat the beast…..:) Smiling over her.

  • Reply Vickie Wolf September 3, 2015 at 11:00 am

    I’ve been following your blog since day 1 and didn’t know till now there was a comment wall or I would have posted earlier. I’m so very happy for your news!! I have no connection to you or, thankfully, to cancer, but I’ve been sending encouraging thoughts to you along your very brave journey. All the best to you and your family as you celebrate your life!

  • Reply Debra Fleming September 3, 2015 at 10:40 am

    Aaron, I’am so happy for you! My son is a friend of your sister’s and he thought I would like to hear your posts since I was going through cancer also. I have to say that your treatments have been more grueling than mine ever were. I know how you feel because my ct scan shows no mass in my lungs now. You kinda feel like “is this real?” It is and PRAISE GOD for He deserves All the credit and if this does”nt draw you closer to God I don’t think anything will. Thank God for your life everyday and smell those roses honey! Debra

  • Reply mollerunit September 3, 2015 at 10:30 am

    What thrilling news! We are so excited for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your journey. Love, Cousin Lisa and Alex.

  • Reply Steffi Habermann September 3, 2015 at 9:32 am

    What an amazing turn!!!! I had to read it twice. What an unbelievable journey. I am lost for words. Just know I am beyond happy. I look back to January this year and can’t even describe what I’m feeling right now. You are a fighter Aaron, and all of us can learn from you. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

  • Reply Maddie's Messages September 2, 2015 at 9:14 pm

    Incredible!!!!!!!!! We are beyond happy for you! You have valiantly fought and the reward is so very sweet. We will, of course, continue to keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

  • Reply Dessertier September 2, 2015 at 8:26 pm

    Yah !!!!!!!!!!!! We, at Michele Coulon Dessertier have been reading all your posts and hoping all the best for you …so glad !!!!!!!! You are an amazing writer , and have held us all captivated. Your courage and positive thinking have been a lesson for us all…we are all enjoying this glorious moment with you ….Yah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Reply Alesha Ballon September 2, 2015 at 8:16 pm

    amazing news aaron..didn’t doubt your strength for a second. thank you for inspiring us all through your journey. enjoy your burrito to the fullest:)

  • Reply Rita Bottoms September 2, 2015 at 7:21 pm

    Tom and I are cheering!!!!Such wonderful news for you and your family. So much love from us to you all. Rita and Tom

  • Reply Denise Cicourel September 2, 2015 at 6:56 pm

    What joyful news for you and and your family! You are an inspiration to us all!
    Love,
    Denise, Michael, Daniel and Gabrielle

  • Reply Pam September 2, 2015 at 4:58 pm

    So awesome Aaron!!!! Sending love, hugs and JOY from Reno…….

  • Reply Dan September 2, 2015 at 1:52 pm

    Never questioned you….it was like when you told me to lay the bat on my shoulder and I roped that shot over the SS in Cienfuegos….you are the ultimate positive teacher and competitor.

  • Reply Matt September 2, 2015 at 1:00 pm

    Hey mate enjoy that Burrito. So stoked for you, your friends and family. You have cancer on the ropes…..TKO this round for sure.

  • Reply Erika Guiles September 2, 2015 at 12:32 pm

    You are a freakin rockstar! I just cried tears of happiness and am SO thrilled for you and your family! We knew you would kick cancers ass… Way to go Aaron! Enjoy that Cali burrito :)

  • Reply Christina September 2, 2015 at 11:32 am

    Congrats Aaron, that is fantastic! Way to keep up the fight and positive attitude.

  • Reply Mary Ganster September 2, 2015 at 11:18 am

    Oh Aaron, you did it! Hank and I are so over-joyed for you and all who Love you so dearly. Beautiful Brandon must be walking on air. God Bless You!

  • Reply Alan Precourt September 2, 2015 at 10:41 am

    This news made my year.

    Man, I can’t tell you enough what this means. We love you!

    Looking forward to now actually seeing you in person!

  • Reply Mayumi September 2, 2015 at 9:23 am

    Crying tears of joy for you Aaron!!! So incredibly happy to hear such wonderful news. Sending lots of love!

  • Reply Jennifer Rea September 2, 2015 at 9:20 am

    Amazing news!!! So happy for you and April. Let the burrito feast begin!

  • Reply Judith Zander September 2, 2015 at 9:00 am

    Very happy for you! Enjoy your burrito :)

  • Reply ellegphotography September 2, 2015 at 8:59 am

    This made me cry. SO HAPPY for you!!!!!

  • Reply M.J. Adamucci September 2, 2015 at 8:30 am

    wow, my family and i are so happy for you; we have been praying very hard
    for this news; you keep fighting because this cancer is NOT going to get you.
    take care, Love, The Adamucci Family

  • Reply Wynn September 2, 2015 at 8:18 am

    This such amazing news Aaron!!! I am so happy for you and your family! Thank you for fighting and being so inspiring!! Xoxox, Wynn

  • Reply Taylor September 2, 2015 at 7:55 am

    YEEEEHAWWWW!!!! Amazing news Aaron. So happy for you and April and the rest of your family. xxoo – Taylor

  • Reply Robyn Campbell September 2, 2015 at 7:26 am

    Incredible news!! Pure joy for you and everyone around you! You have the biggest heart. Love always the Androphys and Campbell’s :) xoxo!!! Now go enjoy that California burrito!

  • Reply Rachel September 2, 2015 at 7:06 am

    Wonderful news. What a way to start blood cancer awareness month. I’m sure you are very “aware” of what blood cancer is and how devastating it is. Keep fighting. I will too. Big hugs and I’ll keep praying for you. The real journey is just beginning.

  • Reply Shannon September 2, 2015 at 5:44 am

    I am so happy for you and glad to hear the great news!

  • Reply courtney cole September 2, 2015 at 4:41 am

    What a feeling this must be for you and your family. I am so incrediblely happy for you guys. What wonderful medical advancements we have and thank goodness for supportive family and friends.

  • Reply Bob Stevens September 2, 2015 at 2:32 am

    Great news to hear that and pure joy for the family!

  • Reply Mario moreno September 2, 2015 at 12:29 am

    Thats such great news Aaron. Baseball games and California Burrito it is! Thanks for sharing. You are an inspiration.

  • Reply Liz Wolfe September 1, 2015 at 11:58 pm

    Congratulations!!!! I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. I am so happy for you!!

  • Reply Jennifer Tabak-Levy September 1, 2015 at 11:33 pm

    I am in complete joyous tears reading this! Beyond happy for you and your family. The hubby is sleeping and I am going to go wake him with the news. Much love for continued health and restoration.

  • Reply Jenny Miller September 1, 2015 at 11:30 pm

    That is so completely and totally wonderful. SO happy for your and your family.

  • Reply Nada Adjadj September 1, 2015 at 11:08 pm

    What a great news Aaron!!!!wish you only the best

  • Reply Stacey Hanson September 1, 2015 at 11:06 pm

    Ahh! This is amazing Aaron and we’re so incredibly happy for you! What an inspiration you are to us all!! xo Stacey, Scott, & Colin

  • Reply Jaime Shea September 1, 2015 at 10:36 pm

    Wow, Aaron!! Best news ever! I wish I could say I am surprised – if anyone was going beat this, it would be you. The world would just be super duper unfair otherwise. Much love. Xo

  • Reply Justin Hulse September 1, 2015 at 10:33 pm

    Hi Aaron. I’m very familiar with your work and have been a fan for a long time. I heard a few months ago about your cancer and truly felt pain for you and your family. Partly because cancer has struck my family recently and partly because I’ve wondered many times what the hell I’d do if I was in your shoes. So I can only imagine how difficult this was for you and your family and couldn’t be more happy when I read that you are free of cancer.

    May your good health continue brother!

  • Reply Jennifer September 1, 2015 at 10:08 pm

    Amazing news for you and your family! Brought tears to my eyes reading about you son wanting you to come to his game! Sending good thoughts!

  • Reply Lorien September 1, 2015 at 9:48 pm

    Fabulous news, Aaron, just fabulous! We have read every one of your updates and have been sending so many good wishes/vibes your way…so happy to hear this. You brought tears to my eyes!

  • Reply frankie Hartwell September 1, 2015 at 9:46 pm

    Darling Aaron, prayers, family, friends and faith are everything when you are giving the challenge of life that you have gone through. You are going through it a winner. You have been and example to us all Aaron and the good news has brought a smile to my heart. My sweet husband who has advanced brain cancer will soon be on the other side and I know he will be up there giving you continued strength and will be cheering you on. We so needed to hear this wonderful news. God bless and know how much your loved.
    Frankie & Wally

  • Reply Anseth Richards September 1, 2015 at 9:41 pm

    Thank you God for this blessing! Thank you Aaron for your unwavering determination and thank you to your emense support system of loving friends and family who kept you going! Aaron we all love you so much. I couldn’t be more ecstatic with your wonderful news. We need that day on the beach now to celebrate!!!
    Love you?

  • Reply Lowell Tindell September 1, 2015 at 9:36 pm

    SO stoked for you! Nice work man. The power of a positive attitude.

  • Reply Janis Foley September 1, 2015 at 9:30 pm

    We are so happy for you Aaron! <3 Said a prayer for you today…We are so grateful to hear this news! Beyond awesome! :) Time for Chipotle! ha ha!

  • Reply Rita Moore September 1, 2015 at 9:22 pm

    Aaron, I have tears of joy right now – I am so happy for you! I can’t wait for my husband Charles to get to the land of NED too! We get the results of the first CT scan since he started his medications on Thursday – we too will be in an Oncologist office holding our breath……the pain and sickness of side effects of the last 2 months will be in the rear view mirror it the drug therapy is shrinking the tumors….like you, if after 5 months or so the tumors are shrunk, he will start a 2+ year of immune therapy. Every 3 weeks an infusion………but if we can get to the land of “woo hoo beating cancer” we will walk the path. So happy for you and all of the family – enjoy your first bit of Life as NED!

    Rita

  • Reply Becky September 1, 2015 at 9:03 pm

    Reading this post just put a huge smile on my face after a very crappy day. To say I am happy for you and your family is a huge understatement. I hope you enjoyed that burrito!

  • Reply Kristin September 1, 2015 at 8:59 pm

    My dear friend Aaron…❤️ God Bless. I just text you saying that I always have “held the space and knowingness” that you will NOT be defeated by cancer. Not you. Your heart and passion for love and goodness and connection, art and your generosity…is much bigger then any ole darn Cancer. ❤️
    Love you and I’m thrilled to know and trust that I have my friend for a LONG time to come ❤️

  • Reply Holly September 1, 2015 at 8:54 pm

    I just can’t believe this miracle..the gift of freedom… The gift of life. I so happy that you are well. I have been following your blog for a long time now and shared with many friends that have also been fighting different forms of this hideous disease. They have found courage and grit reading your humorous and positive messages. I have lost one good friend from brain cancer a few weeks ago but he lived an additional 5 years with the incredible treatments they now offer,
    Thank you for sharing with all of us the details and embarrassing situations with such humor and grace.
    Love and Light
    Holly Skinner

  • Reply Harriet Wolpoff September 1, 2015 at 8:37 pm

    Aaron–There are hardly words to say how wonderful your news is. You continue to be an inspiration, but that is not your job. Your job is to go out and enjoy life!!!

  • Reply Jessica M. Talbi September 1, 2015 at 8:23 pm

    Thank you for haring this good news with us. I have been praying for you all this time and continue for the next two years. I’m very proud of you for your positive attitude and strength!!!

  • Reply Dianne Park September 1, 2015 at 7:37 pm

    What fantastic news! I’m so happy for you. Your entire family must be jumping for joy! Ypu have been amazing throughout this entire ordeal. Sending love to your mom & dad, too. Congratulations! You really did beat cancer!

  • Reply Donna Gonzalez September 1, 2015 at 7:12 pm

    Great news…. I agree it is pure joy …. Laugh !!!! Continue your jounrney with all the positivity you have used to get to this point !!!! Love and hugs, Dave and Donna

  • Reply Dana Higgins September 1, 2015 at 7:02 pm

    So so happy to read your blog and see this wonderful news! You and your beautiful family will continue to be in my thoughts.

  • Reply Yiftach September 1, 2015 at 6:33 pm

    I’m looking forward to giving you a big hug, old friend. Mazal tov on this most excellent news! Here’s to a lifetime of health, happiness, burritos and baseball!

  • Reply Nancy Selander September 1, 2015 at 6:31 pm

    Fantastic news Aaron!!! so happy for you and your entire family, this is the news we all have been waiting for….YOU DID IT!!! Now your blog …How I Beat My Cancer … is a reality.
    Here’s to living life.
    Much love and big hugs,
    Nancy and Bob Selander

  • Reply Diane September 1, 2015 at 5:53 pm

    This is WONDERFUL news Aaron! We are sooooooo happy for you and your family! It’s brought tears of joy to my eyes. You have been one hell of a trooper Aaron. So glad you have turned the corner and you are in the home stretch now. Love Bob & Diane

  • Reply Carissa September 1, 2015 at 5:42 pm

    Whoop, whoop!!! Way to go Aaron (and family)!!! Thank you so much for including all of us in your amazing journey!! I’M SO HAPPY TO HEAR YOUR WONDERFUL REPORT!!! Way to stay so positive & be so inspirational throughout this journey!! Keep up the great work!!

  • Reply Jessica Gillon September 1, 2015 at 5:06 pm

    So happy for you my friend. What a life changing journey. Thank you for taking us all along with you so that, we too, may be reminded of just how precious life is. Love you man. Can’t wait to say it to your face! The Gillons.

  • Reply Lillian September 1, 2015 at 4:32 pm

    So happy for this wonderful news :) Thank you for sharing your journey with us Aaron!

  • Reply Paula September 1, 2015 at 3:58 pm

    I am SO THRILLED for you and your entire family. I knew you would beat it, but it’s still FANTASTIC to hear!!!!!!!!!

  • Reply Carolyn Murphy September 1, 2015 at 3:43 pm

    Aaron, I am Patrick Murphy’s mother and Pat shared your site with me because he thought I would appreciate your philosophy as well as your determination. He was so right and now, after reading your latest post, I am cheering for you and your family. Please do go out and have that burrito and celebrate. You have taught me so much about living and so I celebrate with you! Carolyn Murphy

  • Reply Jennifer Barker September 1, 2015 at 3:36 pm

    Andrew!!!!! I am so happy for you!!! I know this road has been tough…ok that seems like an understatement. This has been the toughest battle you or anyone I know has ever gone through! Thank you for sharing your story, your battle and now your success! Shawn and I say all the time how blessed we are to meet you and I hope we will be able to rely celebrate in California with you in a few weeks! Enjoy every minute of this. xoxo – The Barkers!

  • Reply Frances Nystrom September 1, 2015 at 3:31 pm

    Yea, Yea, and YEA!!!!!!! So, so happy for you and all your family including your wonderful Mom and Dad. As a parent, I know this was really tough for all of you! Prayers are answered, yea modern medicine and cheers for you in every way I can think of–your attitude has been inspiring throughout this journey!

  • Reply melissa September 1, 2015 at 3:21 pm

    I knew it!! I knew not even stupid cancer could beat you!! I know you’ve gone through so much these last 8 months! Awesome, fantastic, amazing, wonderful news!!!!
    So glad to hear!!!!
    Hugs and high fives:) :) :) :)
    Melissa

  • Reply Linda Lungren September 1, 2015 at 3:20 pm

    What fabulous news! Tears in my eyes just reading your celebration. It’s hard to believe someone is overjoyed while getting a needle of chemo in the spine. It’s all in perspective. Everything hurts a little less just know this news sums up your journey in my mind. Tears of Joy to celebrate and the California Burrito sounds pretty good to me as well!

  • Reply Jessica Chang September 1, 2015 at 3:15 pm

    Amazing amazing news for one of the most sincere and genuine people I’ve ever met. Your courage, your positivity, and humor through this incredible challenge/journey has been so inspirational. Thrilled for you <3

  • Reply Jacqui Hart September 1, 2015 at 2:57 pm

    Aaron, you don’t know me but I know of you through Megahan Whitney. I have followed your journey from the very beginning. This latest update is an answer to many prayers. You’ve been so giving of every detail you’ve gone through, good and bad. I cried happy tears reading this post. Continued prayers for a wonderful, rich life. I can’t imagine how happy you must be. Congratulations! God is good!!

  • Reply Beth Sun September 1, 2015 at 2:48 pm

    Fabulous News! Praise God!!! Now go and live life to the fullest and don’t stop reminding people how important family and building relationships with other people are! :-)

  • Reply Patti Nylund September 1, 2015 at 2:44 pm

    Aaron, so happy to hear your fantastic news!!! Thank you for sharing your journey with us all…you continue to be an inspiration of strength, courage, and inner spirituality, and of course, some humor mixed in! “Enjoy Life”

  • Reply Gina Hundley September 1, 2015 at 2:43 pm

    We all knew you had this amazing fight in you. So happy to hear this wonderful news!

  • Reply Mary O'Shea September 1, 2015 at 2:42 pm

    Aaron–Your news is wonderful! How amazing~! So happy for you!

  • Reply Kristina Chartier September 1, 2015 at 2:40 pm

    God bless you!!!!!

  • Reply Rick Valentine September 1, 2015 at 2:36 pm

    Congratulations, Aaron!! That is truly fantastic news. I am really happy for you and the whole family!

  • Reply Billy September 1, 2015 at 2:35 pm

    Woot woot. I have goosebumps. We’re all so happy for you, your fam, and us..lol :D I’m going to start calling you Chuck Norris

  • Reply Kristina Schreck September 1, 2015 at 2:30 pm

    SOOOOO HAPPY for you Aaron…AMAZING NEWS:)!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Reply Kerry Slason September 1, 2015 at 2:28 pm

    I have been following your blogs waiting to hear this news!!

  • Reply courtney September 1, 2015 at 2:27 pm

    AMAZINGLY AWESOME NEWS!!

  • Reply Sena Schwendinger September 1, 2015 at 2:24 pm

    Oh Feldman! Today to read your latest update has brought tears of complete joy to my eyes. I know that we have been very sparse in talks since your diagnosis and move but I must say that you are continually in our prayers and we think of you always. I’m so happy to hear that you are in FULL remission and know that if you can conquer the last 8 months as you have, that the next 2 years are going to be a piece of cake my friend. Keep the positivity of life going and hopefully we will have the pleasure of seeing you in the near future.

  • Reply Melissa Barrad September 1, 2015 at 2:12 pm

    Great news Aaron! So happy for you!!

  • Reply Neil Nguyen September 1, 2015 at 2:10 pm

    CONGRATS & HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY !!!
    Welcome to the cancer survivor club
    I talked with your parents and I’ve been observing your case: you’re AMAZING…

  • Reply Sarah September 1, 2015 at 2:09 pm

    Prayers answered!!!! This brings so much joy to our hearts! So proud of you & I know this is the beginning of a whole new life for you. Lots of love

  • Reply Shoshana Ganster September 1, 2015 at 2:08 pm

    SO INCREDIBLY PROUD OF YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

  • Reply Jason Schwendinger September 1, 2015 at 2:08 pm

    WOW! That’s absolutely amazing and awesome news! So happy to hear that Aaron. What a journey man. I still owe you and April a couple of dinners, so let me know when you are feeling up to it :)

  • Reply Tina Marino September 1, 2015 at 2:06 pm

    WOOOOHOOOOOO! Praise God! So very happy for you!

  • Reply TODD MAYO September 1, 2015 at 2:04 pm

    FANTASTIC NEWS!

  • Reply Kelly Senyei Siberio September 1, 2015 at 2:03 pm

    INCREDIBLE NEWS TODAY!!! We have been pulling for you, Aaron! Thrilled to read your latest update!

  • Reply Nancy Burke September 1, 2015 at 2:03 pm

    Congratulations Aaron! YOU have done it. I loved all your appreciation to friends and loved ones, but it was your so positive attitude and desire that brought you through this with flying colors. You deserve to celebrate every way you can. You have been through so much and your body has taken such a beating, but it is resilient primarily because of your always positive attitude. You have taught so much to others by sharing your experience and have proven to all that it is possible. Thank you for sharing your journey so eloquently and honestly.

  • Reply Brandi Geisen September 1, 2015 at 2:03 pm

    That is Wonderful! Your news has truly made my day! I have been waiting for months for this message. Congratulations!!!!

  • Reply Bethel Nathan September 1, 2015 at 2:01 pm

    Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes!!!! This is absolutely fantastic news, and I am laughing along with you and Brandon! Truly enjoy that burrito, and all of the baseball games ahead of you! You did it!!!

  • Reply kaley kenney September 1, 2015 at 2:00 pm

    That is incredible, I’m so happy for you and your family! Thank you for sharing this with us!

  • Reply Elizabeth September 1, 2015 at 1:57 pm

    That is the most FANTASTIC news I’ve heard in a long time! I have thought of you often over these months and I’m just thrilled for you and your family. You are a great man, who inspires me…this brought me to tears! I’m so glad you got to meet my friend Jon! You’re both cancer-free! Really amazing! Go celebrate!

  • Reply Mariana Aguilar September 1, 2015 at 1:53 pm

    I am so truly happy for you and your family! MAny more blessings your way.
    Thank you for sharing your journey with us!

  • Reply M.J. August 30, 2015 at 11:42 pm

    You are so inspiring. Good luck. Stay strong and i know you will conquer this.

  • Reply Mimi August 25, 2015 at 11:58 pm

    Aaron, I really hope that your all of your “fantasy dreams” come true! I bet with your positive attitude and will, that they will become a reality! You’re so strong and tough, that I can’t imagine otherwise!

  • Reply Linda Lungren August 25, 2015 at 1:04 pm

    Aaron, I love your dreams and the things you are looking to enjoy–so everyday, commonplace, and things many of us take for granted–yet SO very special to put in perspective, just to appreciate the wonderful small events and opportunities around us. Your journey has been tough but you are the “tough cookie” who will succeed. Even tough cookies crumble a little at the edges. You are allowed!

    As an avid Padres fan, I’ll buy you a brewski at the All Star game!

  • Reply Kristin Garuba August 24, 2015 at 10:14 pm

    You’re a trooper! So glad to hear you’ve been able to sneak in those moments of sunshine with your family. You’re amazing – as usual. We are cheering you on and can’t wait to hear about the hair growing back, the sweaty days you’ll be pumping iron and the next Minecraft lesson you’ll have to keep up with. Kisses to you and April.

  • Reply Allison August 24, 2015 at 7:56 pm

    Hang in there Aaron! You are doing great and you are right, everyone deserves a little pity party once in a while- you have to fall down to get back up. I’m so glad you enjoyed your time with Brandon- he is an amazing kid. We got to meet Brighton yesterday- so cute and waiting to give you lots of smiles when you get home. Sending you lots of love and healing thoughts. love, Allison

  • Reply Beth Sun August 24, 2015 at 7:50 pm

    So glad that you were able to spend so much time with your son and had such a great time!
    I believe you will be enjoying the things that you listed very soon also. Hang in there. I have been praying throughout your journey and will continue to pray for strength, peace, comfort and complete healing. Looking forward to your next post with all the good news!

  • Reply Ellen Claxton August 24, 2015 at 7:46 pm

    HUGS, hugs and more HUGS. Thinking of you always!!!!

  • Reply Rick Valentine August 24, 2015 at 1:55 pm

    You’re on the home stretch buddy! Hang in there…we are all thinking about you and looking forward to hearing fart jokes again in person.

  • Reply jeremy Beth Kusmin August 20, 2015 at 5:45 am

    Hi Aaron! I’ve been meaning to write something for a while. Not sure if you remember me…i stayed with your awesome family for a summer when I was 12. Our dads were BFFs as kids. Anyway, I’ve been thinking of you and praying for you often
    I am amazed by your phenomenal strength, humor and positive attitude throughout this journey. What a special man you have become. Sending prayers and positive energy as you embark on this last phase of treatment. Love to your family!
    Jeremy Beth Kusmin (hirschhorn)

  • Reply Andrea August 19, 2015 at 9:18 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron!
    Glad your ending the hard part of your therapy!!! keep getting better, sending you light and strength!

  • Reply Halah Ghalib August 19, 2015 at 6:56 pm

    Happy Birthday ..You can do it and beat the cancer ,, may the lord bless you and give you the strength to do that.
    I will pray for you.
    Halah_Saudi Arabia

  • Reply Eric Blehm August 18, 2015 at 3:16 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron… We knew you were special when we hired you to photograph our wedding back in 2001. Lorien and I have been following your blog, and have been inspired by your words of strength and optimism. We miss you, and hope to see you sometime soon. Keep fighting the good fight Aaron! We’ll have to get the boys together sometime to play for old times…

  • Reply Lane Coopersmith August 14, 2015 at 2:23 pm

    Happy birthday Aaron! You have and are doing a magnificent job! Sending you love every day.

  • Reply Alesha Ballon August 11, 2015 at 8:29 pm

    happy happy happy birthday to an amazing fighter! loved seeing you enjoying life and reminding us to cherish the little things. you are a true inspiration.

  • Reply Chris Leuer August 10, 2015 at 8:42 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron. It’s awesome to hear you can go to the beach and enjoy Thai food and sleep at home !

  • Reply olivia August 10, 2015 at 5:20 pm

    Happy birthday to you! I will always remember that as it is my birthday too. My husband is a 4-time major cancer survivor so we know that good outcomes happen and that your positive attitude will lead to your victory and renewed life. Keep on keepin’ on!

  • Reply Pam Matteoni August 10, 2015 at 5:13 pm

    Happy, happy birthday Aaron! What a great post! It feels like my birthday. Much love and Joy to you and April.

  • Reply Jennifer Rea August 10, 2015 at 1:10 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron! So happy to read you are doing well through all of the chemo. Keep kicking that cancer’s ass!

  • Reply Jamie Renfro August 10, 2015 at 11:42 am

    Hey Aaron,
    So glad you had an amazing Birthday, and it was so great to see you out and enjoying life! I wouldn’t cut Cameron’s hair for any other reason than to make you a killer hair piece, so let me know when you are ready! ;) Thank you for continuing to put life into perspective and helping us all cherish the simple things!

  • Reply joy August 10, 2015 at 11:30 am

    Happy Birthday Aaron… We haven’t met YET… but you have already blessed my life in so many ways. I saw this quote today, and it made me think of you, and all the positive energy you send out into the world.

    “Every day is a second chance”

    You remind me often to live my life with more meaning. It is my wish to always leave a good footprint in the world… thank you for giving me footprints to follow with all of your amazing, positive, inspiring words.

    You are always in our hearts & prayers.

    Joy & The Authentic Flavors Fine Catering Team.

  • Reply Punam August 10, 2015 at 9:49 am

    Happy Belated Birthday! Lots of Love!

  • Reply Ellen and Neil August 10, 2015 at 8:23 am

    Happy, Happy Birthday, you fighter, YOU! I knew you could do it. Now get some meat on those bones. Love ya back!

  • Reply Hal and Maria Rothenberg August 10, 2015 at 7:07 am

    Dearest Aaron, Happy Birthday !!!! This is prpbably the happiest ypu willl ever have. And you deerve it. You have fulfilled your promise to beat the crap of this illness.

    We are so happy you made 3C and are doing great. Way to go.

    Our best to April and your family. Hal will call Ed later today.

    ALL our love always. And many more HEALTHY and happy ones.

    love

    Maria and Hal

  • Reply Lisa brown August 10, 2015 at 6:13 am

    Happy Birthday Aaron! I enjoy all of your posts, you’re an inspiration!

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl August 10, 2015 at 5:40 am

    Aaron,
    Wishing you many more healthy and happy birthdays!
    Love,
    Sheryl and Fluffy

  • Reply Shonda August 9, 2015 at 11:14 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron! I admire your spirit and tenacity. Your video of your speech was great! I especially liked when you said, “Love is the meaning of life.” You are so right. It’s really that simple, isn’t it?! I look forward to your future posts :-)

  • Reply susanfoster44 August 9, 2015 at 11:11 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron! You are loved! You are beautiful! Thank you for your inspiration, it has helped so many people (and me) have strength to get through their own challenges. May you have many more happy, healthy birthdays and years filled with many reasons to Celebrate! Much Love Always,
    Susie

  • Reply Mimi August 9, 2015 at 10:39 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron!
    With much love,
    Auntie Mimi

  • Reply Gail and Randy Hesseltine August 9, 2015 at 10:28 pm

    Happy Birthday Aaron! We are so happy that you are doing so well with your cancer treatments. Here is a toast to many more birthday celebrations!! The Hesseltines

  • Reply Bethel Nathan August 9, 2015 at 10:18 pm

    Wishing you the happiest of birthdays, with only more to come! Here’s to a smooth rest of this insane first part of the process, and the start of maintenance!

  • Reply Jaime Shea August 9, 2015 at 9:34 pm

    Happy birthday, Aaron!! SO glad to see that you are still the wonderful, positive YOU. And you’ve SO got this in the bag!! Cheers to MANY more birthdays, old friend!! xo (And Blood donation: You got it!)

  • Reply Dianne Park August 9, 2015 at 9:22 pm

    What a HAPPY BIRTHDAY message! It was a joy to read this. You’ve been amazing throughout this entire ordeal and I’m SO HAPPY for you and your parents and family that you’ve achieved this. Bravo and wishes for many happy birthdays to come! Dianne & Fin

  • Reply Jacqui Hart August 9, 2015 at 9:10 pm

    Although I don’t know you personally, I know of your website through Megan Whitney. I’ve been following your blog since the beginning of your journey and I’m grateful to God that prayers are being answered. Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. While it is not quite finished, Lord willing, the hardest part is is over. You’ve been an inspiration in the hardest of times. Again thank you for sharing as you’ve touched many lives in doing so while you endured immeasurable odds and showed the strength to concur. Blessings to you and your wonderful family. I know it was a joint journey. God bless.

  • Reply Melissa Barrad August 9, 2015 at 8:55 pm

    Happy birthday Aaron! Thank you for being continuously inspiring, upbeat and well… You!! I’m rooting for you every single step of the way!

  • Reply Chelsea Sanger August 9, 2015 at 7:58 pm

    Happy birthday Aaron!! You have so many wonderful accomplishments to celebrate from the past year, and so much to look forward too! Your post made our day =) We need another double date in the future once you’re able! Sending you and April a big hug from the Sangers! XO

  • Reply Linda August 9, 2015 at 6:35 pm

    Wow–Happy Birthday and the beginnings of celebrating all the wonderful things “around the bend”. (Especially the Thai food). I can tell you (as a Padres season ticket holder) that the Padres are saving their runs for your return!! Quick –get well!!!

  • Reply Frances Nystrom August 9, 2015 at 5:59 pm

    Aaron, we wish you a very Happy Birthday and many more to come! I watched the Love Benefit video and was encouraged by how good you look and sound. You have inspired and encouraged many! Hugs to you and your wonderful parents!

  • Reply Josh Kopelman August 4, 2015 at 8:02 am

    Aaron, checking in brother you are in my thoughts and prayers every day. Big hugs to you and to your amazing family and friends….the Love benefit was an incredible experience. Look fwd to seeing you strong again amigo.

  • Reply David Feldman August 3, 2015 at 5:57 pm

    Aaron, you are amazing!! I think about you all the time. You may not know this, but I do and I am praying (even though I am not religious) that everything works out for you.
    Love,
    David

  • Reply Ann Beddis July 16, 2015 at 9:54 pm

    Love your positive attitude! And you are right about your parents – they rock!

  • Reply Mimi July 16, 2015 at 4:58 pm

    Wow! That’s what I have to say about your “Love” video, Aaron! Omg! Best way that I could’ve spent the last 30 minutes. I saw my foot surgeon today, and I’ve been a bit down, about being off of work for 3 months. You helped me put it all into perspective, once again! No more, “Poor Me”!
    Instead, I’m looking at how I can use the time off to connect with loved ones, and how I can work on something’s that I’ve been putting off for myself and home.
    I’m always thinking of you, Aaron, and sending my love and prayers!
    You are an amazing inspiration!
    Giant Loves!
    Auntie Mimi

  • Reply Kristin Q July 16, 2015 at 3:27 pm

    Thank you Aaron, for sharing your surprise appearance at The Love Benefit. Your message, strength, positivity and heart should be heard and experienced by all. It was a very special and touching event….and I hope you still feel the love we all have for you.
    I have been very sick for the past 2 weeks with a mystery bug….and I went back and read your blog from the beginning. It helped to turn my fear into faith and love (and to end the pity party I was having on day 10!) lol.
    You have touched the lives and hearts of many people and I am grateful to have you as one of my best friends <3
    Sending you love and light always
    KQ

  • Reply Mary O'Shea July 13, 2015 at 9:35 pm

    Hi Aaron. I wish you the very best in round zero. Remember, things can only go up from here. Just reading your posts lifts my spirits. It’s a privilege to be able to read your words and be reminded of the important things in life. Thank you again. Wishing you lots and lots of immunoglobins (major multiplication of the good stuff).

  • Reply Alan Precourt July 11, 2015 at 3:03 pm

    I was down this past week with something… lingering. But your words are indeed correct! Hang in there, Aaron!

  • Reply Rick Valentine July 8, 2015 at 9:11 am

    It’s wonderful to see you keeping your spirits so high and your unwavering belief so strong…keep that mindset and this will pass before you know it. Hang tough, homeboy!!

  • Reply Leah Hansen DeRocili July 8, 2015 at 8:33 am

    Hi Aaron, This is Leah (Kristen’s mom). So good to hear that you are still thriving. I remember you as a teenager singing Star Spangled Banner with Kristen at graduation. I was so proud of both of you. You have always had courage. Kristen said she saw you recently. She has kept me up to date on your journey and progress. I am still proud of you! I send you my best wishes. Maybe when your immune system is solid again and I am out there to visit we can go to lunch for something that is not hospital food. Love you bunches. Leah

  • Reply Mike Morse Photography July 7, 2015 at 5:14 pm

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I am so impressed by your continued choices, attitude and tenacity. All great reminders and yes, most of the time we do get to choose our thoughts. Praying for your healing and you continue to inspire us all.

  • Reply salunisca July 6, 2015 at 5:42 pm

    Wishing you a quick recovery to feeling better again. Keep on fighting like a champion.
    You are right, It is OUR CHOICE to choose Happiness vs Sadness. Whenever I feel down and sorry for myself for whatever reason, I fight it back with all the things that I am SOO grateful to have, and those are countless. You have a bright future in front of you my friend and I can not wait to see it unfold.
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. Hugs. Miss you.
    Tatiana.

  • Reply Jason Schwendinger July 6, 2015 at 4:50 pm

    Hey Aaron, I know it’s sad to say this (for me), but I just figured out how to send you a note on you’re blog! I’ve read every update as you’ve sent them and have had some thoughts to share, but never having followed a blog I guess I thought it was like Facebook and it was just locked down so these updates didn’t get inundated with people’s replies. So, today’s I’ve learned something new :) Sena and I think of you often and pray for you too – just wanted you to know that. I can’t believe it’s been almost 6 months now for you. I’m so glad that you are fighting the fight and continue to share your experiences and thoughts. I know I tend to take things fore-granted, and I do make a conscious decision on occasion to do something about it – but in general I am a very positive person and therefore I tend focus on the good in life and what I do have, not so much what I don’t or on negative thoughts. I’m encouraged by your blogs and your spirit – and I look forward to hearing more about your journey back to full health.

  • Reply Julie Pryor July 6, 2015 at 3:13 pm

    I am thrilled that the worst is almost behind you Aaron! It sounds like the next few weeks will be particularly rough – I am praying for smooth sailing from there. Your attitude and perspective are extraordinary and I know they help and touch everyone who reads this. Know that many, many people are thinking about you this very second. I cannot wait for the day to work with you again! Sending you Prayers and Hugs.

  • Reply Karen Zavora July 6, 2015 at 1:42 pm

    Just a note to say that Tim and I are thinking of you! Like right… now!.. just thought about you.. and again..now! :-) And of course, we are sending you love!

  • Reply Andy Moffat July 6, 2015 at 1:25 pm

    Aaron, I prayed to the baseball God’s for your speedy recovery, your spirit is needed out on the diamond where it can continue to teach and inspire others. You have helped me to understand that nothing should be taken for granted, not even the smallest of life’s offerings. Continue to kick some ass!! Call me when your ready to have a catch!. Take care bud, love you.brother!

    Your friend, Andy

  • Reply Mimi July 6, 2015 at 11:51 am

    Your attitude amazes me every time I read these… Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

  • Reply Rita July 6, 2015 at 11:12 am

    Happy belated 4th of July Aaron…….You are truly amazing and inspirational, so I send you positive energy and continue to refer the dickens out of True!!!!!

    Great memories of past 4th of July’s….your sister was probably laughing hysterically herself:)

    Get well soon your missed:)
    Rita Tazbaz
    SD Marriott Del Mar

  • Reply Dianne Park July 6, 2015 at 11:11 am

    Reading your blog is hard for me. Scary, in fact, but your resilience and positive outlook are heartening. I imagine you got an extra shot of happiness upon hearing about the birth of your new nephew. What a wonderful and exciting moment for your family. A new little someone for you to love. You and your family are always in my thoughts. Best wishes Uncle!

  • Reply Mimi July 1, 2015 at 7:35 pm

    Thank you for sharing Aaron. Your positive attitude motivates me. Every time I get down in the dumps, I get taken back to you. You are amazing, and I know you will beat this Monster! Much love, and you and April, are always on my heart! Xo, Auntie Meem

  • Reply Linda Lungren June 30, 2015 at 10:04 pm

    I have been looking for your posts and wondering how things were going with you and your family. Wow, what determination and strength and fortitude and stamina and resilience and bravery and courage and whatever other words for “hanging in there” you are exhibiting. We all look forward to the days of joining you through your blog when you announce the celebration of getting through this challenge.

  • Reply Kathryne "Nip" Louzek June 30, 2015 at 12:29 pm

    Thank you for posting an update. So glad you got that private room! I am praying for strength and healing for you and wisdom for your doctors and healthcare team.

  • Reply Kristin Q June 30, 2015 at 11:35 am

    Hi my friend,
    It is nice to read your writing again. Your strong spirit and unbreakable optimism fuels you and helps so many others as well.
    Your strength and inspiration has helped me through this last week. I became very sick on Wednesday and ended up in the ER getting a whole host of tests including a spinal tap. I was alone and scared and then I thought of you and your strength and it truly got me through. ??
    Thank you for that and for sharing your experience with the world. ❤️ You help so many people.
    Much love,
    Kristin Q

  • Reply Liz Wolfe June 30, 2015 at 10:23 am

    Hi Aaron, It is good to hear that you continue to fight your way through this now just as you did at the beginning. It sounds like you are nearing the finish line of the hard chemo. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You will win this fight!!

  • Reply Rachel Newstat Weinstein June 30, 2015 at 10:21 am

    This is beyond inspiring: “I am proud to say it still has not broken my spirit even one percent.”… Thanks for being you and sharing you.

  • Reply Michelle Davis June 30, 2015 at 9:17 am

    Hello Aaron it’s funny just this morning I was thinking I hadn’t received a recent update and there it was! So glad to here you holding strong! We will meet one day! I am a friend of Jess’s and your story touched me in so many ways. My sister-in-law is going thru a struggle with cancer as we speak, I share with her your inspirational words. You are truly an amazing person and I look forward to hugging you & congratulating you. This is how you will beat cancer! Kick its ass Aaron!

  • Reply aericka hawkins May 28, 2015 at 7:41 pm

    I am very sorry to hear that you are experiencing this dramatic change in your life, please know this is only an obstacle and challenge in your life. Everything happens for multiple reasons and this is just a test of your faith. Continue to be strong and know that everyone reading your story is very supportive of your positive and updated information. I know this cannot be equally easy. I know that it has its ups and also its down periods. I also know that venting to this website is also a form of healing. Mentally you are starting to heal. And with the healing of your mind then comes the healing of your soul. I agree with you when you had shared of the flood gates opening, you are in fact correct, and it is has become no longer your fight, but fir God is fighting for you. I also recall you questioning if hope could be healthy! Yes hope is healthy and gives us strength to look forward to the better and upcoming days. Your last update shared about learning patience. I agree with you and i believe that is something everyone should master eventually, not just in there time of need. Patience will allow you to anticipate the blessing and healing that are bound to take place and manifest into your life. You ask if things can just be random, I doubt it, only because i know God has a plan and path for your life. People and situations don’t just pass through certain people’s life. Things are happening in your life only on the account of a break through. These are all test and tasks yet waiting to be prevail. Blessings to you my friend keep the positive movement.

  • Reply Diane May 26, 2015 at 7:06 am

    We are crossing our fingers & thinking good thoughts for you Aaron! Sounds like this has been a really long two weeks for you. So happy to hear your numbers are on their way back up! Keep up the good work Aaron. You are an amazing person!

  • Reply Susan Macey May 26, 2015 at 6:51 am

    Hi Aaron: Sounds like you are hitting a particularly challenging rough spot, but the news at the end of your post was very encouraging. Hang in there and we’ll keep you close in thought and send positive energy your way! Susan and Matt

  • Reply Donna May 25, 2015 at 9:16 pm

    As Shoshana stated whoever thought we would be crossing our fingers for you to get chemo?!? I’ll also cross my fingers for to go get sushi, beer, and watch the padres !! ✌️These are the fingers I’ll cross!!

  • Reply Shoshana Feldman Ganster May 25, 2015 at 8:59 pm

    It has definitely been a frustrating couple of weeks. I never imagined saying that I hoped you were going to get chemo tomorrow, but right now I know that it would be good news, because you would be moving forward. You continue to amaze us on a day to day basis with your strength and positivity, and now patience. I love and admire you so much.

  • Reply Ellen Claxton May 25, 2015 at 8:20 pm

    You are in my thoughts & hoping with all my will that you get the right numbers Tuesday!!!

  • Reply Jaime Shea May 25, 2015 at 8:04 pm

    Hi Aaron, Thank you for the update. I was talking about you just today, hoping you were doing well through this latest course of chemo. Hoping for good numbers tomorrow! I’m often thinking of you and your family! Please do reach out if you guys ever need anything. Much love, Jaime

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 25, 2015 at 8:42 pm

      Thanks Jaime :) I hope all is healthy and happy for you!

  • Reply jackie busby May 25, 2015 at 7:49 pm

    good luck Aaron. We are all in there cheering for you

  • Reply Tobin Rogers May 25, 2015 at 2:42 pm

    It was great to chat today. You and your family will be in our hearts and prayers. You’ve got a great outlook on this, and with your words you’ll touch the lives of many in ways you wouldn’t have considered. You’re an inspiration an example to follow. Thanks for keeping true to yourself. We’ll be following along in your new adventure.

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 25, 2015 at 7:47 pm

      Thanks Toby. It was great catching up with you today!

  • Reply Ben Zavora May 14, 2015 at 12:33 am

    Hey Aaron, just thought that I would drop you a line to let you know that I am thinking of you. I have been following your posts and they are well written and hit home with me. I am pulling for you dude and look forward to the next time I run into you and your family.Keep crushing the positive attitude as you have so eloquently done thus far…I feel steadfast in the belief that attitude is everything and without a good one, you are destined to fail. I will be continuing to keep you and your family in my positive thoughts.-Ben Zavora

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 25, 2015 at 7:49 pm

      HI Ben,
      Great to hear from you. I appreciate the kind words. Staying positive is definitely a challenge but key for sure. I hope all is great on your end :)

  • Reply Lane Coopersmith May 11, 2015 at 10:46 am

    Hi Aaron,
    Your mom just told me how I could share my thoughts with you or I would have done so sooner.
    I have read all of your entries and each one has been and continues to be deeply inspiring.
    Your courage and determination is awesome. I’ve had one bone marrow test at age 24. I can’t imagine enduring more. It did help me to endure what was to come by putting pain in perspective.
    I am so grateful to be able to read about how you have chosen to cope with your travail.
    Your enlightened words always heighten my appreciation of the blessings in my life and how many of my daily concerns are of no importance.
    Although I’ve known of your many gifts and talents over the years, you have surpassed all of these by sharing your truth with all of us. You have blown me away.
    Thank you Aaron for touching me so deeply and heightening my awareness. My prayers are with you.
    Love and blessings to you, April and your entire family.

  • Reply Matt Barre May 7, 2015 at 2:58 pm

    Hey Aaron,

    I’ve read every one of your entries since I heard the news back in January and I finally realized that one small thing I could do for you is just to say HI and let you know there’s one more person out here sending positive thoughts your way. As you battle your way through this ordeal, I’m truly impressed by the strength of your spirit and how genuinely you’re able to express it to everyone through this blog. Keep on fighting, keep on writing, and I look forward to running into you on the streets of Solana Beach soon!

  • Reply Linda Lungren May 5, 2015 at 3:27 pm

    Aaron,

    Firstly I loved the Cancer Models. How clever! (and fantastic photography–no wonder you have a photo company)

    Your comments about the “Truth behind every smile” reminded me of someone else going through cancer who looked through all her friends on social media and found photos of ill people with beautiful smiles. It depressed her so much to think every ill person in the world looked so much better than she–what was wrong with her? She had to be reminded that people don’t like to post photos of them being sick–that they also look like her when they don’t have the energy to smile. They muster up the energy, the costume, the wig, the make up, and the “smile” to put on a happy face for the rest of us. Thanks for being able to find that happy face throughout this excruciating ordeal and the ability to let us see your truth behind your smile. This journey will someday have the pot of gold at the end.

    P.S. Does your doctor know you were out in the dirty sand and beach? Be Safe!

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 5, 2015 at 8:03 pm

      Thank you for your comment Linda :) I appreciate you taking a read. It is more dirt that i have to fear as it has fungus. Sand isn’t so bad. I wish you much continued health and happiness!!

  • Reply Frances Nystrom May 5, 2015 at 10:03 am

    You are a fantastic writer and could have a career in that field (and I’m saying this as a Journalism major and former news editor of The Daily Aztec at SDSU). At this moment I don’t even have words enough for the depth of this entry. You are truly an amazing man.

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 5, 2015 at 12:36 pm

      Wow! That is very kind of you to say. I am flattered. Thank you. I think we are all potentially good writers at heart. We just have to have something to write about. It is really healing for me. If you asked me 5 months ago about writing, I would say, maybe in the next lifetime, not into it…. That sure changed :)

  • Reply Heather Moreau May 5, 2015 at 9:44 am

    It was fun to type-chat with you the other day! Thanks for reaching out- I will always consider you a friend even if we only see each other’s lives through a computer screen. There’s a lot of love and laughter + tears and pain in every single person’s life- no matter how their carefully curated online personas look and it’s an interesting journey to find that out. God has brought us all to the point in our lives where we are and He has a plan….no matter how hard it is to see and how much it might not match up with our own plans… deep thoughts by Heather, lol <3

    • feldster
      Reply feldster May 5, 2015 at 12:32 pm

      Great catching up to you as well. Talking to each other through social media counts! HA.

  • Reply Robin May 1, 2015 at 5:54 pm

    OMG those photos are priceless!! Your spirit is GORGEOUS!

  • Reply Punam Chowdhury April 30, 2015 at 12:31 pm

    Love the pics from today! You rock! I love your spirit my friend.

  • Reply Ellen Claxton April 30, 2015 at 12:04 pm

    Love the Wigging Out ;-)

  • Reply Diane April 28, 2015 at 1:47 pm

    Hi Aaron, Was great seeing you & April in the video. Love the hat! Sounds like you are getting treated like a V.I.P. up there. As it should be. Thanks for sharing this with us Aaron. You are a real trooper & sounds like you are keeping on track to getting back to your old self. Keep up the good work Aaron. Sending Hugs & good vibes from Via Bartolo…

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 28, 2015 at 8:14 pm

      HI Diane,
      Thank you for all your kind words. I hope Bob has found his youthful energy again!!

  • Reply Mary O'Shea April 28, 2015 at 11:40 am

    Hi Aaron. I was at Belmont Park yesterday day afternoon with my daughter Clare and I met a woman who had three girls. Our children were gravitating toward each other on the rides. I started talking to her. She had a tracheotomy scar on her neck. As we talked more, I asked her if she had been injured. She said “No, I had stage 4 cancer when I was 18.” As she spoke more, I learned that she had been in a coma for 11 months and that it assumed that she would die. She had only a 15% chance. And yet, she beat her cancer. Standing there some 20 years, later, she had three beautiful daughters after they had told her that the chemotherapy and radiation would make her sterile. They were wrong. And death for her, was wrong. I felt in awe after speaking with her. I realized I was talking to a miracle. They are out there and you are one too!

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 28, 2015 at 1:14 pm

      Thank you Mary. That was great to read. There are a lot of Miracles out there for sure. One really cool thing that I have found is we actually have the ability to create Miracles for each other. We have more power than we realize already in us.

      • Reply salunisca May 7, 2015 at 1:54 pm

        You are someone Miracle right NOW.

        • Reply salunisca May 7, 2015 at 1:54 pm

          You are someone’s Miracle right NOW.

  • Reply Heather Moreau April 28, 2015 at 9:30 am

    More and more and more prayers for you Aaron! You are doing amazing….I can’t even believe you still are working through this, my business would have collapsed long ago. You’re a genius and I wish I had 1/3 of your business sense! Prayers for your recovery soon so we can all see you take over the world!!!

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 28, 2015 at 1:12 pm

      Ha. Thanks Heather. I will be doing this for quite awhile. Its all about adapting and creating new opportunity :) Hope all is well for you!

  • Reply Josh Kopelman April 26, 2015 at 12:02 pm

    Big hugs amigo, just got caught up…you are often in my thoughts. You are amazing and inspiring.

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 28, 2015 at 1:14 pm

      Love you brother

  • Reply Nancy Stevens April 24, 2015 at 2:54 pm

    Thinking of you! <3

  • Reply Lydia Stevens April 20, 2015 at 11:02 am

    Hi Aaron
    I have always admired your creativity, motivation, persistence and great sense of humor. You are a super talented writer as well but most importantly, you inspire people.
    Thank you for sharing your journey.
    Lydia Stevens – retired teacher from Spreckels school.- one of your moms friends.

  • Reply jeremyferrick April 16, 2015 at 11:31 pm

    You’re simply the best Aaron. Can’t wait till you’re better and you me and Brian will hang.

  • Reply Diane April 15, 2015 at 11:12 am

    Hi Aaron, Just checking in to say Hi. Miss seeing you & April walking your dog on the block. Hope April Had a great 30th Birthday. Bob really appreciated you stopping by to check up on how he was doing. Glad you had a great visit with Brandon. He is a sweetheart…Take care Aaron….Love Diane & Bob

  • Reply Ellen Claxton April 13, 2015 at 8:32 am

    Happy Birthday April!

  • Reply Jennifer Tabak-Levy April 12, 2015 at 10:21 pm

    Your attitude is amazing. Your words about your wife are stunning. You were a beautiful soul when we met you 13 years ago and you are in my prayers every day. Thank you for sharing. Keep it up! Big hugs and huge smiles for you! Jennifer Tabak-Levy

  • Reply Mimi April 11, 2015 at 4:56 pm

    Great Post Aaron! Thank God your beautiful wife, April, was born on this day 30 years ago! I hope my sweet niece is enjoying her Special day, and that you all have a nice time, on Sunday! Much love, Auntie Mimi

  • Reply Kristin Q April 11, 2015 at 2:58 pm

    Happy Birthday April!

  • Reply Jacqui Hart April 11, 2015 at 10:44 am

    Hi Aaron. You don’t know me, but I know of you through Meghan Whitney. I’ve been following your posts, and am amazed at your positive outlook and your gift for sharing all that you’re going through. Today’s post about your wife was beautifully written. She is a gift from God and you are truly blessed. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to your future posts and to the final post when you’ve kicked cancer. Stay strong and God bless you.

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 28, 2015 at 1:15 pm

      Thank you Jacqui. I appreciate your kind words and prayers :)

  • Reply Nancy stevens April 5, 2015 at 3:30 pm

    Thinking of you and your family to day Aaron…<3

  • Reply Esther Soles March 31, 2015 at 9:10 pm

    Hello Aaron, Just sending you a note to let you know I have been keeping you in my prayers and am sending you light, love and lots of good energy. I have been enjoying your posts and wanted to let you know how much you are missed. I Sent April a text and silly picture and hope she shares it with you. Do you get to see True at all? they say pets are good therapy and I hope that you will be able to give him a little cuddle, it will do both of your hearts a world of good. Be well my friend and keep up all of your positive energy, I think you are amazing!
    Esther

    • feldster
      Reply feldster April 28, 2015 at 1:16 pm

      HI Esther,
      Thank you for your nice comment. I do get to see True. He is right near me now! I hope all is amazing with you. You have a great Spirit and are missed here in CA

  • Reply Ellen Claxton March 31, 2015 at 8:14 am

    Hello Aaron. Sending you hugs. I think of you EVERY day. Hang in there. Sending my love to you, April and Brandon.

  • Reply Gail and Randy Hesseltine March 31, 2015 at 8:12 am

    Aaron you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your experience.
    Gail and Randy Hesseltine

  • Reply Kristin Q March 30, 2015 at 11:14 am

    Thank you for your bright light and wisdom. You are getting the PHD degree in acceptance Accepting the things we have no control over is where we find Grace, peace and serenity.
    I’m sorry about your gardening being on the “no no” list ): I know how much you were looking forward to it. But you will have a long bucket list for the 3 year celebration!! I’ll have a movie marathon with you!
    Even with ALL that you are dealing with, you still offer me the best guidance and advise. Thank you my friend.
    Love you!

  • Reply Allison March 30, 2015 at 9:49 am

    Thank you for the update today Aaron! It is always a good day when we hear from you. We are thinking about you, April, and your family every day. Looking forward to seeing you when you are up to it. Much love, Allison

  • Reply Mimi Thompson March 30, 2015 at 8:33 am

    Thinking about you and happy to hear you are able to spend some time at home!

  • Reply Diane March 30, 2015 at 7:55 am

    Hi Aaron, So happy to hear you are out of the Hospital and you & April are getting settle into your new home. We will miss seeing you walking on the block though. Want to let you know Bob is doing as well as can be expected. He is waiting (and not patiently) for his energy level to come back! They say it just takes time. BE PATIENT! Sounds like you are on your way to a full recovery also Aaron. Enjoy your visit with Brandon this week.. Love Diane

  • Reply Sari Reznick March 30, 2015 at 1:08 am

    Congrats on going home, Aaron. You’ve really been through the mill this round. I haven’t been on your site for a long time. I have re sent in my email to get updates–didn’t take before. Best wishes and enjoy being out of jail!

    Sari

  • Reply Mimi March 29, 2015 at 9:41 pm

    So glad to see this last blog. Kevin and I were just wondering how you are. So glad you made it through “Round 1”. Keep the Boxing Gloves on Aaron. We’re in your court, and thinking of you and praying for you always. Hope being at home becomes a positive change and good for you. Much love, Auntie M

  • Reply Bethel Nathan - Ceremonies by Bethel March 29, 2015 at 8:52 pm

    I’ve been thinking about you a whole bunch lately, Aaron – whenever I work with any of your team, especially – and I’ve been anxiously awaiting the next update as it’s felt like a long time.

    I promise you, we will all be here to hug whenever you are ready for us, and I shall enjoy a Padres game with you whenever you are ready too. A year sabbatical to accomplish it all sounds like a great idea, and so well-deserved! In the meantime, know that you have this crazy huge community of folks out here cheering you on, and we know that you will get through this all stronger than you’ve ever been.

  • Reply Kathryne "Nip" Louzek March 26, 2015 at 5:53 pm

    Robert and I have been thinking of you and praying for your recovery. Love, Nip

  • Reply nancy Stevens March 23, 2015 at 7:42 pm

    Hi Aaron, you are in my heart every single minute! Just wanted to send a hug to you and your family! XXXXX

  • Reply Robbie Klinefelter March 18, 2015 at 9:30 pm

    My name is Robbie. I met your dad today. He took a picture of my license plate. It says BTCANCR. I had Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL) in 2000. You seem to have the right attitude. It’s a roller coaster. Don’t get too high or too low. In a weird way, having cancer is one of the best things that has happened to me. I look at life differently. Material things don’t really matter. I know who my closest friends really are. If you have any questions, shoot me an email. You can also contact the Leukemia/Lymphoma Society. They have tons of resources for yourself and your family. Hang in there!

    Robbie

  • Reply Linda Lungren March 18, 2015 at 8:57 pm

    I loved your resort description. “Ya gotta go” so you might as well cast a little humor on the situation. I believe you are on day 6 and I’m wishing you the best. Lots of spa treatments, cucumbers on your eyelids, lemon infused water, and all the pampering you desire.

  • Reply Mimi March 15, 2015 at 9:58 pm

    Thinking of you, and my beautiful niece, April, all of the time. I am keeping the faith and sending positive energy your way. You are an inspiration to me, to lead a healthier lifestyle for myself, Aaron. I know you are going to kick this Cancer in the butt! Love, Auntie M

  • Reply Dana Shaynadana Stone Goldberg March 15, 2015 at 3:45 am

    Hang in there! Your sense of humor will help immensely as you go through your health challenges. Ask your doctor or a hospital nutritionist…there is a “magic Mouthwash” that can prevent mouth sores, & supplements that can protect your stomach. I lived on fruit smoothies during difficult weeks. http://www.CaringBridge.org/visit/shaynadanasg

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl March 13, 2015 at 4:45 am

    Aaron,
    Congratulations to you and April on finding a new home! We wish you lots of love, good health, and happiness! Enjoy spending your time working, reading, or just relaxing in your big backyard.
    Love,
    Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Nancy Stevens March 12, 2015 at 9:10 pm

    Aaron, I find you to be the most sincere and enlightened person. I wish I had spent more time getting to know you personally before this journey. Thank you so much for sharing yourself with us all now. You continue to make a huge difference in my life. The experience I shared with my hubby was very different. I wish we had been able to approach it as you are. But now you are doing this for so many people, and you will change many lives, and the way they will approach many of their journeys ahead. I will be one of the many you have touched. Carry on young man! We are all routing for you!!!!

  • Reply Diane March 12, 2015 at 6:40 pm

    Thanks Aaron for making me laugh! I just love your humor. Sending hugs and good thought’s your way. Love Diane

  • Reply Sarah Whitney McGivney March 12, 2015 at 12:13 pm

    Hi…I am cheyne’s granma….love reading your blog and your approach to this. Cheyne’s mother,
    Alisa, when training to be a nurse, almost fainted when she saw a bone marrow procedure…her only bump in the road…so I am glad it is over for you. We are all thinking of you and sending you good vibes as you recover from this round…with love,
    Sarah

  • Reply Robin March 12, 2015 at 10:05 am

    LOVE the all-inclusive resort, Aaron!! I did skip the difficult paragraph… but your humor and attitude continue to amaze and inspire me! Congrats on finding a lovely house.

  • Reply Heather Moreau March 12, 2015 at 9:30 am

    Sending you love today! Thank you for these updates- I am thinking of your journey all the time and praying for you! It reminds me of a book I read to my son a lot called “We’re going on a bear hunt”…. “we can’t go over, we can’t go under it, oh no! we’ve got to go through it!”. You can do this!

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl March 8, 2015 at 6:55 pm

    Aaron,
    We want to send you big doses of love, hugs, and well wishes for the next three weeks of treatment!
    Love Always,
    Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Ann Higham March 8, 2015 at 4:19 pm

    Aaron- I read about your diagnosis in the paper just a week after my sister Susan was diagnosed with Extranodal NK/T-Cell Lymphoma. She is also a patient at UCSD under the care of Dr. Ball and as write, she is on the 3rd floor going through her 2nd course of SMILE and will stay in for her 3rd. I have read your blog to her and what you both are going through is so similar! Good days and lows. I find your blogs an encouragement to me as a caregiver and as I pray for her daily you are included. She gets really bored in her room and would probably like meeting you (#363). I pray your next chemo course brings you closer to your healing.

  • Reply Yiftach Levy March 6, 2015 at 11:47 am

    OK, been reading the blog for several weeks, after being stunned to learn of the situation through Jenn, who saw it from someone else (maybe Bethel?).. Anyway, I’m finally commenting because I love you and have been following along and praying for your health the whole time, with a chuckle here and there because you’re awesome at keeping things lighthearted even under these difficult circumstances. Until today, when I LOLd at the movie poster. Tremendous! Go kick cancer’s ass, old friend, and keep telling everyone how you’re doing it. Refuah shlema!

  • Reply Marsha Newstat March 6, 2015 at 11:26 am

    Hi cuz, you are a light to all of us…a moral compass reminding us concretely of why we are here. You and the family are in our hearts and prayers always. We will add Bob to our prayers So like you, a mensch, thinking of others. Keep visualizing lying on your back and looking up through the trees….we love you

  • Reply Michele March 6, 2015 at 8:13 am

    Hi, we don’t know each other, Shawn Nelson turned me on to your blog. I am currently in remission with small cell lung cancer. Thankfully they caught it before it left the lung or I would not be writing this right now. You are going to beat this! Your attitude is all you need (and treatments, of course. :)) My tumor went away in 2 1/2 weeks. I still did 12 chemo treatments, 30 radiation treatments and 10 brain radiation treatments. If I make it through the next year I have a 90% chance of going five years and being cured. When I started, they gave me a 12% survival. I am really pulling for you! I hope the next three weeks go smoothly, with as little discomfort and side effects as possible! You go!
    Michele

  • Reply Diane March 6, 2015 at 6:34 am

    Hi Aaron, Love your new picture & love your sense of Humor! Thank you for mentioning Bob on your blog. We all sure could use some extra prayers & good thoughts during these tough times. Sounds like you will be under the weather for a while as you go through these next treatments. As you know it always gets worse before it gets better but in the end you WILL be fine. I know Bob was hurting so bad yesterday but I kept telling him he was really doing good. Just take time! You take care Aaron and see you back in the neighborhood when you are done will this next round of treatments. Love Diane

  • Reply Christina March 5, 2015 at 3:44 pm

    Hi Aaron, I was going through some pictures today and came across some of you! You are in my thoughts and prayers. Your attitude and outlook are amazing. You have such important messages for everyone in your updates. Thank you for sharing what you are going through, your strength is remarkable.

    Christina

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl March 5, 2015 at 7:36 am

    Hi Aaron,
    You are in our thoughts every day! We were happy to hear that you spent a few days with Brandon. That was a great boost for both of you. Your dad told us that you and April went to your photo studio the other day. That was great news! We hope you had a positive experience. We love hearing that you’re doing well. We also hope that you’re getting a few laughs from the humorous baseball stories that we sent you. I’m sure Brandon would love to read the book with you. We would love to hear from you.
    Love,
    Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Kristin Q March 3, 2015 at 10:15 am

    Thank you Aaron. Every post you write teaches me (us all) what is truly important in life: love, family, friends, balance, joy….and it is easy to forget when we get caught up life’s hustle bustle…..

    I’m remembering when we took that gnarly motorcycle ride out to Valley View Casino to see Cheryl Crow!! Yikes!!! Hehehe!! So fun and Im happy we survived to laugh about it!!! Thank you Laura Rizzo (she won the tickets on the radio and wasn’t able to go).
    Maybe next time we will take a car, but there is SO much fun and love and friendship time in your future, my friend :) You will beat this cancer, no doubt.

    Love you!

  • Reply Robin March 2, 2015 at 9:35 pm

    Aaron, thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. For reminding us that all that really matters is health and love. You’re an amazing inspiration. And I love that your sense of humor continues to shine through! Humor heals.

  • Reply Ellen February 24, 2015 at 12:08 pm

    Once again, you made MY day. Hugs for that! There is no greater success than the one you have achieved today.

  • Reply Kristin Q February 24, 2015 at 10:19 am

    This is the Aaron I know and love. Ive learned that life will always show us what is the most important thing, above all else….Love <3 In my darkest times, love is what lit the path back to the light <3
    You will get your "buff" back….but with a huge open heart…..Waaaaay cooler!
    Love you!

  • Reply Pete Wheeler February 23, 2015 at 2:22 pm

    Aaron, just read the UT article from January. I lost my beautiful wife to brain cancer a year ago. Her chances were about 1 to 2%, but we had a blog “Mary’s Miracle.” It would have been a miracle! With 50 t0 60%, you have good odds. Keep up the fight. I am writing a book to help others deal with what we went through and what you and your family are now dealing with. It is a tough journey with an uncertain destination. Best of luck.

    My blog for the book http://www.wheelerswritings.com

  • Reply Linda Lungren February 18, 2015 at 1:29 pm

    I just had 4 appointments this past week and a half at occupational therapy at Thornton and you were always in my thoughts, wondering how you were doing, worrying about why you weren’t blogging (the last time was your extreme 5 days of pain), and hoping things were going well for you. Aaron, try to focus your energy on healing yourself and don’t expend your energy with guilt for “intruding” on your parent’s retirement plans or not being able to be a better husband. I’m sure they want to do absolutely everything possible to get you through this and get you back to the life you love–movies, trips, dinner out, doing your photography, checking out the Padres, going to Disneyland or whatever. Those things will come when you “beat your cancer” which I’m sure you will. Hang in there, enjoy moments you can, and keep the strength to face each day knowing you are one day closer to winning this battle.

  • Reply Lisa Lippe February 17, 2015 at 9:09 pm

    Aaron, thank you for showing yourself and teaching all of us so many valuable lessons!

  • Reply Merryl Berner Cicourel February 17, 2015 at 5:56 pm

    Hi Aaron, Just read your blog. So good to hear that Brandon was able to visit with you. It sounds like it was a really special visit – you and he really connect. Such a strong loving bond you both have together. Much love, your cousin Merryl

  • Reply Steffi Habermann February 17, 2015 at 3:12 pm

    Just saying hi. Thank you for blogging today, even though it takes so much strength and energy. Very happy you are able to spend quality time with your best buddy Brandon. Big hugs to your sweet April, even though we don’t know each other. She is an amazing, strong woman; an Angel. Your Angel. What a Love.

  • Reply Michellene February 17, 2015 at 1:43 pm

    You are a rockstar! Your vulnerable moments you share are so moving and I have enjoyed following you. Love and light to you and your family.

  • Reply Hal and Maria Rothenberg February 17, 2015 at 11:47 am

    Hi Aaron

    So good to see that you are feeling a little stronger after the last chemo. Andthe best part, being able to fly Brandon in! Great idea and at 10 I am sure he understands what is going on and it is better he does.

    We keep in touch with your parents and know you are doing OK most of the time, of course with ups and downs but fine in general.

    Aaron we wish you ALL the best and know you will win this battle.
    Loved the idea of spending time under a tree with your own thoughts and memories.

    So, Keep your chin up and we are with you from very cold New York.

    Love,

    Maria and Hal

  • Reply Kristin Q February 17, 2015 at 11:26 am

    There is something so peaceful and calming about laying down under a tree and looking into the endless sky that helps me remember that my problems are temporary and will pass.
    It connects us to our hearts where we hold our gratitude and the purest answers to life’s biggest questions

  • Reply Kristin Q February 17, 2015 at 11:13 am

    Love to you and Bdog ❤️❤️ He IS the greatest kid with the biggest heart ❤️

  • Reply Diane February 17, 2015 at 7:16 am

    Hi Aaron, So happy to hear that Brandon came down for a visit. I thought I seen him and April taking a walk up the street. What beautiful weather you & Brandon had to share the moment’s together. I know we all get caught up in our own lives but you are always in our thoughts Aaron! Love you Aaron…..

  • Reply Allison February 16, 2015 at 7:16 pm

    Hi Aaron, just thinking about you and sending you lots of love. We think about you and your family every single day. On days without a blog post (or even those that have one), the first question I ask Poff when he gets home is, “Did you talk to Aaron today?” Always sending you our best, Allison.

  • Reply Sara Miller February 11, 2015 at 6:56 pm

    Aaron, I’ve been following along with your journey (Lisa sent the link) and admire your incredible strength and humor. I’m so sorry to hear about the painful pancreatitis complication but hope that’s all done now. You have a great attitude and support network that will definitely help you beat this! Like you said, there is so much on the other side. Hearty appetite to regain your strength, and we’ll be sure to send you some photos of our August wedding, taken by Michael. :)

  • Reply Kristin Q February 11, 2015 at 12:09 pm

    My friend,
    Cancer changes people. It sculpts us into someone who understands more deeply, hurts more often, appreciates more quickly, cries more easily, loves more openly and lives more passionately <3

    Sending love, light, prayers, positive thoughts….and seeing the other side of this for you, my friend. The other side is beaming bright!
    Love you
    Kristin

  • Reply Josh Kopelman February 10, 2015 at 2:19 pm

    You are in my thoughts every day amigo, thinking of April and your family too. Big hugs to all of you as u make it through this tough time.

  • Reply Anna A February 9, 2015 at 9:08 pm

    Thinking of you Aaron.
    Thank you for writing.

  • Reply Mary O'Shea February 9, 2015 at 12:54 pm

    Hi Aaron—I spent a bit of time catching up on your posts. The past few weeks have been crazy so I haven’t even read a lot of my emails. Crazy? How crazy could my past few weeks really be? Truth is, that’s an overstatement.

    When I read one of your blogs, I saw that you had to have blood transfusions. I had a bad hemorrhage after I had my daughter seven years ago and the doctors had to transfuse me the next day with several rounds of blood platelets. I remember feeling like I was not going to be myself anymore as the blood moved through the tube closer to my IV. It was an indescribable fear. And the warnings about the risks. It was one million to one that I would contract HIV and one in 50,000 that I would contract Hepatitis C. They seem like small risks until they are happening to you. It’s like a reverse, perverse “I don’t win this kind of lottery” type syndrome.

    Turns out that my fear soon changed to gratitude as my hemoglobin recovered from an abysmal level of 5.1 to about 9 or 10 in a few days. And then, after a few months, it hit 12 once again. I could finally eat without feeling like I was constantly starving. How did I survive that illness? I guess by God’s grace. I lost 41 pounds of fluid in 24 hours and during surgery, I saw the white light as I was passing through the ceiling of Kaiser Hospital and strangely, I could tell you every single dot in the ceiling panels. There was even a small water stain.

    It was time for me to go and then, as I was passing though, I begged for more time on the planet. My daughter was only seven days old. I asked if I could go back for more time so she could know me. And my wish was granted somehow through some miracle. So although I have not suffered like you, I understand the desire to live in order to continue loving those around us as much as we can for as long as we can—the true purpose of why we’re here.

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey with all of us. Mary O’Shea. P.S. I copied your article from the Union Tribune and my students are going to read all about you and your awesomeness this week!!!

  • Reply Ellie February 9, 2015 at 12:24 pm

    Great share Aaron.
    I don’t know you personally but I know quite a few people responding to you on your comment wall. Many of them have been directly or indirectly affected by the big “C”. I have to give you props for being so real , I’m sure it is giving everyone that reads your posts a glimpse into what it takes to get through it. Keep up the fight and hang on.
    Ellie

  • Reply Tatiana M. February 9, 2015 at 12:19 pm

    This indeed is extremely hard for those very close to you, but I know that they are doing everything for you with LOVE only, and not out of any duty feeling.
    I too think you are only going to get stronger with this experience and I see your heart and soul being transformed. This will only make you and April love and appreciate each other so much more.
    I can not imagine how skinny you must look at 150lbs. OMG. Try to eat for all of us.
    Feel the Love, the pain, the beauty, the sadness, the courage, the humor, the strength, the weakness and above all, the FAITH.

  • Reply Corey Heimlich February 9, 2015 at 10:30 am

    Stay cocky – that’s the only Feldy we know. The Feldster with an exuberant sense of what’s possible, an exuberant sense of what can, and cannot be done. You are one of the few respectful powerhouses with the vision, charisma, passion, confidence and heart to build True Photography, build a respected brand, build a genuine team, and shape the dreams and visions of so many others around you. Stay cocky. You are not a burden; never have been, never will. Remember, we all have choices of where we spend our time, our thoughts, and our waking minutes – the posts, the donations, the impact felt by your inner circle, outer circle, clients, roommates, strangers – to be honest, it all blends together. People surround you not based upon your ‘assumed burden,’ they surround you because life is just a tad slower, a little less exuberant, and filled with a little less laughter while the Feldster is enduring a separate 12-round battle. Selfishly, I’ve always called to hear about your latest gig not typically landed by mere mortals, the latest market you are in the process of penetrating, and ultimately to get some insight into your R & D brain processing – there is never a lack of confidence, and this is why people follow you, aspire to join you, and continue to surround you. Stay Cocky even at 150lbs.

    My current 2-year old son, unborn son, and extended family anticipate learning about the True Photography machine within earshot of you in the years ahead. Don’t F—it up, this is what I’ve always had planned as I’m anticipating each of my boys to have a few thousand hours in your funky office culture 15-20 years from now; can’t imagine where all of these respective True offices will be geographically located, but please plan accordingly for two more stations.

    Stay cocky during this detour; none of us are going anywhere without you.

    (On a side note, there is a selfish part of me that really wants to throw a tomahawk jam on you which would make ESPN’s top 10 – a dunk over your 150lb 6’6″ frame. It has crossed my 5’7″ 170lb + pudgy mind. Knowing the Feldster will be back over 200lbs of sculpted muscle allows me to offer up this comment.)

  • Reply Mike Morse Photography February 9, 2015 at 9:42 am

    Your line, Cancer Cocky, makes me think of Heath Ledger in the movie, “Three Feathers.” A slave tells Heath, “You English walk to proud on the earth,” and later after a long time in prison Heath says back, “I don’t want to proudly any more,” with tears running down his face. We don’t know the path till we have walked it, and walked it you have. I hear a transformation of heart that is full of pain and beauty. Sending you and your friend Pat good vibes and prayers today.

  • Reply Maggie Fleming February 9, 2015 at 9:38 am

    I was so happy to read your blog today and see your will, and sense of humor, are still as strong as ever. When I see pictures of your son I am reminded of the young Aaron I remember on Via Bartolo. In the past month I have come to love and admire the man you have become. We look forward to the day when we reconnect with you and meet Brandon and April (and Shoshana’s baby G). Maybe a blowout Via Bartolo block party? Although if everyone who is rooting for you shows up we may have to change to venue…perhaps Qualcomm Stadium could handle the crowd. Thank you for your inspiration. We send warm wishes and positive thoughts your way. Maggie and Steve Fleming

  • Reply Elizabeth Day February 9, 2015 at 9:08 am

    Another awesome update, Aaron. We don’t need to you to be positive all the time — it’s your honesty that’s inspiring and uplifting and that gets me clicking each time there’s an update and that moves me and that makes such a difference. You’re rocking it.

  • Reply Mimi Thompson February 9, 2015 at 9:04 am

    Hang in there! Praying for you and hoping you continue to stay in a strong state of mind. I know you can!!!

  • Reply Chris Leuer February 8, 2015 at 8:53 pm

    Hi Aaron,

    You are super courageous. Tim told me your news on the phone last week. Wow. I am inspired by your expansiveness and self-reflection. I was just remembering of a couple cool photos you did at Ts wedding; the Beatles shot where I was the lucky one who took my shoes off and shots group shots by an old building. That was amazing. I am sending you all the positivity and good vibes I can. I’d give you hug and high five and fancy handshake if I could, but just take my word, I am with you man. Take care!

    Your friend , Chris

  • Reply Sara Gewirtz Miller February 8, 2015 at 4:44 pm

    Hey Bones!!
    I’ve been keeping up on your progress through your amazing blog and even though I haven’t seen you in quite a few years, please know that you remain in my thoughts!! Keep that strength up and know that you can beat this!! You’ll remain in my prayers as well (and Pat, too)!
    Take care of yourself!!!!!
    Sara

  • Reply Naveen February 6, 2015 at 7:40 am

    Hi Aaron,

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with me. I’ve been thinking about you a lot since learning about your Cancer. You were my wedding photographer back in 2005 at La Valencia Hotel and gave Bill and I beautiful photos of our two weddings. You were so great to work with. I was so grateful and reassured to have had you there during that fun and also stressful wedding weekend! We look at your pictures every day framed in our hallway.

    You are a wonderful writer and you are so very honest about your journey. I know that you will return to your life and your work in due time. In the meantime, thank you for your blog. It’s inspiring on many levels.

    When you are feeling better, please send me an email as I have a question for you about True Photography. Obviously, there is no rush.

    Best,
    Naveen and Bill

    • Reply Naveen February 6, 2015 at 7:41 am

      Oops, I meant 2009, not 2005!

  • Reply Brian Ferrick February 4, 2015 at 9:54 pm

    Great to see you walking around buddy! I know you are going to beat this! I know how tough you are, I am praying and putting positive thoughts out there.

  • Reply Mindy February 4, 2015 at 9:27 pm

    I wish I had ur blog to read when I was undergoing treatment for my bone marrow transplant 16 years ago :). U rock and I think u r an inspiration !

  • Reply Heather Moreau February 4, 2015 at 12:31 pm

    I’m praying for you Aaron!! I’m so sorry you are going through this but you are DEFINITELY going to beat this!!!

  • Reply Josh Kopelman February 4, 2015 at 8:56 am

    Cinnamon Rolls…I like it! Matt Gordon has a Cinnamon Roll bar Sea & Smoke those things are righteous. Stay strong amigo, you are a true inspiration.

  • Reply Ellie February 4, 2015 at 8:40 am

    Great News Aaron. Get your gloves on and keep going. We are cheering you on.

  • Reply Rosalba February 3, 2015 at 9:56 pm

    I remember how it was when my 20 year old daughter, an ovarian cancer survivor now… would ask me, NO!!! WOULD BEG ME… not to take her to the following day’s chemo session….
    Blessed her heart and mine… she has been on remission for 2 years and 3 months now…
    I feel you… I am lightning the one white candle I have selected for February for you… for you only… because I know your family has enough support and enough help to keep going…
    But it is you with the sad blue eyes that needs my prayers… my good/positive vibes… and my long distance companionship…. <3

  • Reply Steffi Habermann February 3, 2015 at 3:16 pm

    So relieved seeing the new video. Applause!

  • Reply Diana February 2, 2015 at 10:10 pm

    Hi, Aaron, Mike and I learned about your cancer and your blog over this past weekennd. I read every word and you will be the winner in this contest. I was so happy to see the video this morning of you doing your laps. Sending you thoughts of love and healing and to Pat for whom you have requested shared blessings. Diana and Mike Rathbun

  • Reply Adrianne February 2, 2015 at 7:35 pm

    Dang fine entry, Aaron! And, I have sent out my happiest healthiest healing JuJu to your new friend Pat (and his family). You have likely made a lifelong buddy here…he is very fortunate to have your guidance, experienced timing and, of course, your brilliant wit to carry him through his scary cancer ride.

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl February 2, 2015 at 7:01 pm

    Aaron, this video was so much better than the last one. We were so happy to see you up walking and talking. You’re doing so well and you looked cute when you gave April the thumbs up at the end of your video. You’re a wonderful caring guy who has made a difference in the lives of so many people including us. Continue looking ahead to all the things in life that bring you joy and happiness.
    Love,
    Fluff and Sher

  • Reply Pat February 2, 2015 at 6:39 pm

    Humbled, gratitude and feeling that infectious Aaron love. You my friend are a very special kind of person already living bigger than most. I can’t even explain what you have done for me.
    To witness another person give of himself so willingly under any circumstance would be profound, to be the recipient changes lives.
    I am fully aboard team Aaron and continue my efforts to “beat my cancer”. Should it ever be needed, know there is love, compassion, admiration from myself and anyone who has met you or read your words.
    Thank you for this amazing gift…
    Pat

    • Reply Shoshana Feldman Ganster February 2, 2015 at 8:04 pm

      Hi Pat I am Aaron’s sister Shoshana. Aaron told us about you and your family when we were at the hospital yesterday. My family sends you many positive thoughts and wishes and we know you can beat this!

    • Reply Steffi Habermann February 3, 2015 at 3:19 pm

      Hi Pat, sending very positives vibes your way as well. Greetings from California!

  • Reply Pam Matteoni February 2, 2015 at 6:07 pm

    Cheers to you and Pat!!!!! Looking great today Aaron. Keep up the great work!!!

  • Reply Shoshana Feldman Ganster February 2, 2015 at 4:23 pm

    You kicked my butt doing laps last night! I know I’m pregnant and all, but I seriously couldn’t keep up. I’m so proud of your strength and determination. Keep up the great work little brother! This last week was a good lesson for all of us to remember that it was only temporary and that you will come out of it and get back to the business of kicking cancer’s ass. BEWARE cancer…you don’t know who you’re messing with! :) Love you

  • Reply Tatiana M. February 2, 2015 at 1:32 pm

    Glad u are feeling better.
    I will make a box of my all time favorite FRENCH MACARONS for when you are ready to indulge.
    I pray for Pt to beat this cancer too. His baby and wife need him.

  • Reply Mike Morse Photography February 2, 2015 at 12:22 pm

    I dig that your giving back to Pat while your in it. Way to give away all that has been given to you, the faith, the hope, and the joy of who you are. Praying for you today Pat. Aaron, go 26 laps a day. Maybe you should do a jog-a-thon while your stuck in there!

  • Reply Kathlene Seymour February 2, 2015 at 10:44 am

    You are amazing – to find it in your heart to ask your followers to pray for another is amazing. Take care of yourself and I see lots of cinnamon roles in your future.

  • Reply Kathleen Powers February 1, 2015 at 6:02 pm

    Aaron , I just read all of your words – you are a wonderful writer and you are passing many things on to us all to reflect on. Every time I have heard your name for the last five years I can feel you and Michael in my office on the floor -you two gorgeous giants your legs tangled up in the small space- so excited to be catching images of President Bush! I love you! Kathleen Powers
    Get well soon for all of us…

  • Reply Tatiana M. February 1, 2015 at 3:24 pm

    My heart is breaking and feeling your pain. I can only wish upon things getting better for you ASAP. Just keep on believing.

  • Reply Raji Chary February 1, 2015 at 1:17 pm

    Hi Aaron,
    I chanced upon your blog trying to find a thought for the day for my first toastmasters meeting. The theme is world cancer day which happens to be on February 4th 2015. Can you guess what the campaign slogan is? ” NOT BEYOND US”. It’s in line with your thinking. I wanted to let you know that I chose your random thought “Is hope healthy?” From a brave man fighting cancer to beat it! I will let you know how it goes! Hang in tight! I will pray that you be protected as you fight and beat cancer!!
    God be with you!

    Raji Chary

  • Reply R. "Mickey" Gutierrez February 1, 2015 at 12:49 pm

    Talked with your dad this AM Aaron! So glad to hear you are doing so well with your cancer!! It sure looks like you have beaten the big “C”. I continue battling mine (prostate-bone) cancer for the last 14 years. Keep on trucking!!! God bless you!

  • Reply Robin January 31, 2015 at 10:37 pm

    You’re amazing Aaron. Truly an inspiration. Thank you so much for reminding us all to cry tears of love, not fear or anger.

  • Reply Diane January 31, 2015 at 10:19 am

    It’s very sad to see you this sick Aaron. The old saying goes sometimes it’s gets worse before it get’s better and we know it WILL get better! Hang in there Aaron! You are a real trooper. So glad to hear that the mass is gone….We love you Aaron

  • Reply jb January 30, 2015 at 10:20 pm

    Like several others, I don’t know you personally, but I am absolutely blown away by your spirit. Really, really inspiring, man. Sending lots of positive, healing thoughts your way.

  • Reply Melanie January 30, 2015 at 8:49 pm

    Hi Aaron! I don’t know you but I saw a Facebook friend of mine (Sage) say some words of encouragement on his FB about you. I was curious and checked it out, and now I am here.
    I just watched your video you posted today, Jan 30th 2015 and It brought me back to my worse days of my life. I know how you feel. Ive felt the same things. When I was 14 (now 24) I went through Hodgkin Lymphoma Stage 4B. I just wanted to reach out to you and to tell you to keep fighting! Like you said, everything is worth the fight, no matter how hard it can be. I remember thinking the same thoughts…
    You can do this! Keep strong and keep fighting because in the end it is worth it!! <3
    Best wishes! :]

  • Reply Gina January 30, 2015 at 7:25 pm

    You’re winning, Aaron!!! Although you can’t see us, we are cheering you on and reading every post in hopes of only good days. You are doing awesome, and you will beat this all the way. Hugs!!!!

  • Reply David Biel January 30, 2015 at 6:36 pm

    Aaron that sounds like it completely sucks. I’m so sorry that you are going through that. Janie and I are thankful for you, and we are thinking about you buddy.

  • Reply everafter2008 January 30, 2015 at 6:15 pm

    Aaron, I continue to pray for you! I pray you’ll have the strength to continue fighting, for complete healing in your body and to have hope that will keep you seeing the good in each day.

  • Reply Shoshana Ganster January 30, 2015 at 5:13 pm

    Keep fighting Aaron. This week sucked, but watching your video actually made me feel better to see you talking and having your eyes open. You continue to inspire so many people. I constantly have people coming up to me at work telling me that they read your blog. The journey to being cancer free is going to be long and tough, but you are going to beat the crap out of it! I am so glad the mass is gone. One thing successfully crossed off the list… I LOVE you so much and I’m so proud of you.

  • Reply Mike Morse Photography January 30, 2015 at 4:41 pm

    Aaron, your amazing, I believe in you. My heart breaks for you, but my heart takes hope in your tenacious spirit. We are all rooting for you and hoping with you. You are daily on my heart, in my mind and in my prayers.

  • Reply Kristin Q January 30, 2015 at 4:29 pm

    If there was a way I could ease your pain….I would take it on myself to spare you this “Dark night of the Soul.” You are a life warrior, my friend. I know you will never give up the fight, but I would give anything to let it be easier on you.
    Keep fighting knowing you are held in love and light and you have SO MANY people who love you and are showering you with their love and faith. We won’t let you go anywhere!
    May you feel the grace and light very soon, my friend.
    I love you X0X0
    K

  • Reply Liz Wolfe January 30, 2015 at 4:10 pm

    Hi Aaron, I am so sorry for the terrible time you have had. Hopefully the doctors will be able to fine tune your treatment so that you can tolerate it better as time goes on. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Sincerely, Liz Wolfe

  • Reply Rhonada January 30, 2015 at 4:08 pm

    Aaron just saw your heartfelt video and I am so sorry you have gone through so much these past few days but it will get better from here on out!!! You have so much strength and courage. You continue to remain in our prayers!! So glad to hear the mass is gone

  • Reply Fluff and Sher January 30, 2015 at 3:29 pm

    Aaron, we saw your video and we feel your pain. The best news is that you are alive and the mass is gone! You are strong. Keep fighting! We love you. Just take things one day at a time.
    Love,
    Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Steffi Habermann January 30, 2015 at 2:16 pm

    I have no words. Keep fighting Aaron. Much LOVE, Steffi

  • Reply Nancy Burke January 30, 2015 at 2:08 pm

    Aaron I was in tears with your video. Actually, I am still in tears. Since early January when I heard the news I have been sending you such healing energy and always seeing the mass as contained. The fact that it is no longer a mass is reason to celebrate and shout even if it is just a very quiet “YAHOO”. Know that I am following your progress and will continue to send you complete healing and total well-being. My thoughts and heart felt thoughts are with you. You are amazing!

  • Reply Elizabeth Day January 30, 2015 at 2:02 pm

    An incredible, powerful piece today, Aaron. And a very, very powerful you. Sending love from San Clemente …

  • Reply Brooke Wing January 30, 2015 at 1:42 pm

    I love you Aaron! You are such an amazing inspiration! And I am not at all surprised you grew up to be who you are today! Sending positive thoughts your way always!

  • Reply Patti Nylund January 30, 2015 at 1:00 pm

    Hi Aaron! Through the years…you’ve captured the very best moments and details of our clients through your lens. I’ve admired how you’ve built your career and become one of our most beloved photographers. It breaks my heart to hear the terrible ordeal you are going through, but like the images you capture on film…you continue to inspire us with your words and humor. Know that we all love you and want to help you with your fight.
    Patti Nylund

  • Reply Lisa Mallard January 30, 2015 at 11:45 am

    Hi Aaron! This is your old neighbor from across the street Lisa. Please know that my family is praying for you and thinking about you everyday. Shannon texted me the otherday (we’ve remained friends for over 30 years) and told me about what you are batteling and facing. I will tell you my heart sank. I still think of you as that sweet boy from across the street. I cant tell you how much I am enjoying reading your blogs. You are one excellent writer! I was glad to read you are at home with your mom & dad. You have the greatest parents. I still miss the awesome popcorn balls your mom would make on halloween! Anyhow, I live in Texas now remarried and I have 3 kids. I havent been in the old neighboorhood in many many years. My mom wants me to tell you to give Laurie a hug from her. Also my brother Jeremy lives in Colorado and says he is praying for you also.

    Please keep writing as your words are truly awesome and inspiring.

    Sending Love from Texas!

  • Reply Julie January 30, 2015 at 6:57 am

    Aaron!
    I met you while you captured amazing life memories at my awesome friends Kelly and Josh’s wedding in Denver, CO last August. Kelly shared your journey with me and I have just emerged from reading your blog. You convey your struggle so honestly; I genuinely feel your energy. So – Here’s hoping you can gain energy from all of us out here pushing for you. Keep your head up. Keep the fight strong. Don’t look back, only forward with fervor and continued determination. Your words are a gift to all of us reading…we look forward to your journey to Victory. Cancer sucks. Show it who’s boss.
    -JMA

  • Reply Dominik Ferrendelli January 30, 2015 at 4:26 am

    Hey man, don’t know if you remember me… but I wish you the best. You were a fun guy to talk to when I knew ya, and got me jumpstarted into my adult baseball life. You got a killer attitude, keep fighting man! Take care, you’re in my thoughts.

  • Reply Tina Marino January 29, 2015 at 9:06 am

    You are so inspirational, Aaron! I am getting ready to go in for some kinda major surgery in a couple weeks and have been moaning, groaning and dreading about it – but reading your optimism and love of life has changed my outlook. Thanks a bunch! Praying for you daily. Keep up the writing!

  • Reply Sara B January 29, 2015 at 2:06 am

    Just getting caught up on your blog, and wanted to take you up on your invitation to share a love comment =) Being that your sister is one of my closest friends, it is no wonder I have always had a fondness for you that is a kin to a little brother. Some friends are like family, and I feel blessed to hold so many happy memories of you and your family dear to my heart. From mixed tapes, to a Rose Bowl Parade road trip, beach days, and block parties…there are too many to name! My favorite of our connections over the years is having children that are just a few months apart. Your son and my daughter becoming friends, connecting our families for another generation. In this moment, if I shed tears, they are tears of gratitude. Your friendship, your family, is a cherished gift! I love you Aaron

  • Reply Adriana Maria Perez January 28, 2015 at 10:19 pm

    Hi!!!! I’m Shoshana’s friend from Longfellow and I met you and your wife one day at the Wax Museum or something like that. . Glad to hear those 3 scary days are behind you! Thinking about you and praying for you all the time. I wanted to tell you to check out some Ted Talks if you are bored one day cause so many of the topics you write about remind me of some Ted Talks I have heard. BTW, I admire your positive attitude, I tend to act that way most of the time, but it is amazing you are choosing to to keep this attitude during the rough times too.
    Here is a link to the topic Happiness on Ted Talks:

    http://www.ted.com/talks?topics%5B%5D=happiness&sort=newest

    And some random ones I have really enjoyed!

    http://www.ted.com/talks/haas_hahn_how_painting_can_transform_communities

    http://www.ted.com/talks/luis_von_ahn_massive_scale_online_collaboration

    http://www.ted.com/talks/jose_miguel_sokoloff_how_christmas_lights_helped_guerrillas_put_down_their_guns

    Say hi to your parents!!! I’m on a leave of absence this school year so I don’t get to see your mom around to say hi myself.

  • Reply Nancy Stevens January 28, 2015 at 6:17 pm

    Every word you write is enlightening and wonderful. You are making a difference in so many peoples lives! You will defeat this! This is a battle to be shared. No one can do this alone. Many of us will face cancer in one way or another – you will make that a little easier with the knowledge you are sharing. Thank you!

  • Reply Diane January 28, 2015 at 3:40 pm

    Sorry to hear what you had to go through Aaron. I know one thing it does not affect your sense of humor! Bob said to tell you if you need any help with the nurses to call him. Love You

  • Reply Alan P. January 28, 2015 at 3:29 pm

    Through your writing, you’re not just helping yourself with clarity; you help me understand perspective as well. Keep going. Don’t stop.

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl January 28, 2015 at 1:42 pm

    Aaron, what an ordeal! We want you to know that we really care about you and want you to be well! There are so many hurdles in life and we know that you have the power and strength to jump high over each one. Even though we are 3,000 miles away, we are with you all the way! Sending you lots of hugs and our love.
    Love you,
    Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Tatiana M. January 28, 2015 at 12:18 pm

    Wow, you had another big scare. Glad you took care of it in time and are feeling better again.
    Stay strong and keep writing.

  • Reply Kristin Q January 28, 2015 at 10:52 am

    Keep up the fight Aaron….You have SO MUCH love around you and many many prayers. Today is a new, beautiful day and you will get through this. One breath at a time.
    Love you

  • Reply Jen Rea January 28, 2015 at 10:06 am

    I usually have 18 tabs open in Chrome of things I want to read that day. Most I never get too – the day gets away from me. I ALWAYS read your blog. You are an incredible writer (I never knew that about you!) and your attitude is, without a doubt, an inspiration to every person who has read even one post. I’m thinking about you and April all the time and can’t wait for you to be on the other side of this. Cancer sucks, but you are inspiring so many people every day. I think we are all stopping to appreciate the little things in life even more because of you.

  • Reply Mike Morse Photography January 28, 2015 at 10:04 am

    Praying for you peace and that you continue to feel hope! Ive been reading all your post.

  • Reply Lisa Storey January 28, 2015 at 10:00 am

    I am so proud of you Aaron :) Keep it up! And, thanks for the continued updates… my family and I just LOVE them… and YOU xoxox

  • Reply Ellen Claxton January 28, 2015 at 9:59 am

    Hugs Aaron!!!

  • Reply Steffi Habermann January 27, 2015 at 2:34 pm

    AMEN to your ‘The Power Of A Quiet Voice’ message!!!!! My saying exactly.

  • Reply mike evans January 26, 2015 at 7:43 pm

    hi arron ive been reading your blogs last couple days . went back to day one and read them all ,some made me laugh , was sad , learned some things about you , and some things to think about every day .looking forward to tomorrow’s blog

  • Reply Merryl Berner Cicourel January 26, 2015 at 4:14 pm

    Dear Aaron, Reading your blog is a revelation – many thanks to you for sharing your profound thoughts, your message with us, with me. By giving voice to these thoughts, insights, you are helping to strengthen each of us who comes into contact with your writings. Much love to you from the Berner Cicourel Family and xox, cousin Merryl

  • Reply Josh Kopelman January 26, 2015 at 12:20 pm

    Your writing is incredible amigo….big hugs.

  • Reply Trisha Landoni January 26, 2015 at 11:34 am

    Thank you for your bravery, your open heart, and the reminder of everything, everyone should be thankful for everyday. Trisha (Norbert’s girlfriend!)

  • Reply Diane January 26, 2015 at 7:47 am

    Thinking of you Aaron! You amaze me with your beautiful writings. We love you Aaron!

  • Reply Ellie January 26, 2015 at 6:39 am

    Made me cry……I feel like I’m there with you when I read your posts Aaron. It’s a new day. Open your eyes and watch the sunrise.

    Ellie

  • Reply Kathryne "Nip" Louzek January 26, 2015 at 4:21 am

    Such a sweet post. You are in my prayers.
    Love, Nip

  • Reply Mirna January 25, 2015 at 8:38 pm

    Aaron, You are truly inspirational. I have learned so much from you. I read your messages and truly take them to heart. Keep fighting and staying strong.
    Mirna G
    (Shoshana’s co-worker)

  • Reply Kristin Q January 25, 2015 at 5:55 pm

    Beautiful…and Yes you will…

  • Reply Sean January 25, 2015 at 5:07 pm

    Aaron sounds like you’re keeping a great attitude throughout this ordeal.

    I had T-Cell Lymphoblastic Lymphoma nearly 7-years ago when I was 34. I was treated with Hyper CVAD at Georgetown University for 7 months. The regimen sounds very similar to what you’re describing. Fortunately, I’m happy and still healthy and in the past three years we’ve been blessed with 2 daughters.

    You know how rare TLL is. If you need someone who has been through this to talk with please drop me a line. Wishing you all the best.

    — Sean from Washington DC

  • Reply Amanda Kalish January 25, 2015 at 7:29 am

    Hi Aaron,

    I don’t know if you remember me or not but I met you through Janet about 15 years ago. She shared your battle with me and forwarded your blog. After reading your inspiring words, I have to say that I am awed by your spirit, your candor, and your way of looking at the world. I have learned so much from you.

    I have a five year old son named Aaron, who for some reason doesn’t like his name. What can I say, he has opinions about everything. I try to talk him into it liking it by telling him how cool it is to have two A’s together, if he ever has a business he’ll be first in the phone book (if there even are phone books by then), etc. More importantly though, I explain how the name Aaron means “mountain of strength,” and that I hope he finds this strength throughout his life.

    You truly have lived up to your name, Aaron.

    You are in my thoughts.

    -Amanda

  • Reply Ellie January 25, 2015 at 5:31 am

    You’ll hit a few walls along the way. You will find ways around them or over them. One day at a time. Be the turtle….:)

    Ellie

  • Reply Kristin Q January 24, 2015 at 11:16 pm

    To my Friend, My Hero
    My first response was “Be gentle with yourself….” As so many others have said in different ways. But I know you and my true response is “keep doing what you’re doing, being, feeling, writing, thinking, connecting xo You got this.
    You are a bright light, inspiration and hero to me and to many others.
    Love you tons!
    Kristin Q

  • Reply Hal and Maria Rothenberg January 24, 2015 at 5:50 pm

    Dear Aaron,

    We have been following your battle against cancer since Ed called us some weeks ago. Needlesss to say, we were first shocked and saddened by the news, but then we started reading your blog and we cannot believe how brave you are! Today we had a chance to read a lot more and we can only wish you ALL the very best with the love we have for you, your parents and Shosh.

    Hal calls your parents frequently and we are amazed at how brave they are too and that alone is a blessing to help you beat this cancer.

    We last saw all of you in 2009 in San Diego, but keep you all in our hearts now and always. We remember having lunch with you, Brandon and Ed and visiting your studio in San Diego [we were very impressed then] and we see that your success continued — time flies Aaron. Brandon is a big boy now!

    Just be brave [which you most certainly are] and know that we keep you in our prayers and that you will beat this illness. Just go one day at a time.

    With all our love – from NY

    Maria and Hal

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl January 24, 2015 at 12:08 pm

    Aaron, we just read your latest post. It’s perfectly ok to feel stressed, overwhelmed, frustrated, and sad. We all feel that way sometime in our lives. What makes you different is that you don’t stay in that moment for too long. You have such a strong positive attitude that lifts you up and pulls you out of that hole. We admire that quality in you. Just continue writing and inspiring everyone who reads your blog.
    Love, Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Jaime Shea January 24, 2015 at 2:36 am

    HI Aaron, it’s Jaime (Moore) Shea. I just read your blog from top to bottom. You are so Aaron. So positive, so full of love and light. Even though it has been many years now, you’re so very high on the list of special, wonderful people who has made such a difference in my life. Your friendship has fed the better parts of who I am today. I’m here with you, all the way and CANNOT WAIT to read your post and see your pic of you throwing a ball again. Much love, always.

  • Reply Linds January 24, 2015 at 12:01 am

    From a fellow Cancer warrior, I cannot even begin to tell you how much of your blog is spot-on to my story and experiences.

    I, too, felt that I was chosen for a reason. The “higher powers” (whatever you believe or don’t believe) chose me because they knew I could make it through this. Fighting cancer was a beautiful experience, and I hope it ends the same way for you.

    Although meds helped me sleep as well, audiobooks and light yoga also knocked me out if nothing else worked. Try the app Audible (I know it sounds nerdy, but don’t knock it til you try it!).

    Treatment was challenging for me, but life after Cancer has been a bigger hurdle in my experience. I’m going through the “oh my god I just beat cancer; now I have to do something AMAZING with my life!! What do I do?! What are my life goals?! No pressure….” stage of recovery.

    Music was also my solace during my fight. “Soldiers” by Otherwise and “Take it as it Comes” by J Roddy Walston have been my theme songs for the past 9 months, and they couldn’t be more accurate!

    Anyways.. Just my two cents. Good luck, and please email me if you ever want to chat.

    Lindsay
    Lmersino08@yahoo.com

  • Reply Alison January 23, 2015 at 10:23 pm

    Found your blog via Corey on FB. Really enjoying reading your perspective and your honest experience. I am thinking of you… Glad you are having good experiences with nurses- as a nurse, I appreciate hearing your point of view. Keep writing and sharing. We will keep reading! Alison (Greene) Willis (Spencer’s cousin)

  • Reply RJ White January 23, 2015 at 2:29 pm

    Hello My mom saw your story and wanted me to contact you . She is 84 and has Merkle cell cancer . when she read the your story in the paper it was uplifting to her . so thanks for getting your story out .

  • Reply Linda G. January 23, 2015 at 1:28 pm

    Thank you for writing your blog Aaron. My sons had your Mom as a music teacher at Spreckels Elementary School and my best friend enjoys your parents company for plays and movies. I understand you are a wonderful photographer and an even better human being. You will be in my thoughts and prayers and keep your positive, glass half full attitude, it works! Writing is therapy and a wonderful way to communicate your thoughts and no better way to heal. Thank you and keep up your valiant fight. Linda G

  • Reply Sandy Hanshaw January 23, 2015 at 9:56 am

    Hi,
    I don’t know you, but just finished reading the article in the UT and had to find out more. You are so courageous and positive and motivating to get thru the tough things and consider them a bump in the road of life. I am a cancer survivor myself, I now like to call it a life thriver. I had to laugh at your WTF pic. I have a little advice, use a lint brush when it starts falling out and it will help get them off unless you have a razor close by. While I had stage 3 breast cancer, nothing nearly as aggressive as yours, I feel very lucky to be here and appreciate things so much more than before. It’s only been a little over a year that I’ve been done with chemo and radiation, but I believe I will always have a better perspective on life because of cancer, and I love it!
    A quote to share, “Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, It’s about learning to dance in the rain”. I look forward to your ourney.
    Take care.

  • Reply Nancy Stevens January 22, 2015 at 10:12 pm

    So glad to hear you’re home with family. My hubby had almost the same cancer as you. It’s fascinating to read what you are writing. When we were going thru this he didn’t share with me as much as you are sharing with us all. I appreciate this so much. My heart is in this fight with you! I know you will be fine! And you are just as handsome today as before! Your inner light shines thru!

  • Reply Tatiana M. January 22, 2015 at 1:36 pm

    Glad to hear you are home with your family, while fighting it. Enjoy your time with them.

  • Reply Diane January 22, 2015 at 7:56 am

    Hi Aaron, It was so good to see & talk to you in person the other day. For what your going through you look wonderful.. Your writings are incredible & I know they come from your heart.. You have a way of making the person reading them feel better. Keep up the good work and hope to see you again around the hood….We Love you Aaron

  • Reply Sandie January 21, 2015 at 11:26 am

    Hey Aaron…its Sandie…Corey’s friend for a zillion years…I went to a bar mitzvah last weekend and the rabbi asked us to say the name of someone we wish to be healed or prayed for.
    I said your name. I don’t really know you… (but I think I met you in the mid 90’s in Isla Vista when we were both drunk!) It felt good to be thinking of you in a spiritual place. your blog is truly an inspiration. xo

  • Reply Ellie January 21, 2015 at 11:12 am

    I get that.
    Your kick ass attitude is what will get you through this. Stay in the zone. Whatever it takes.
    Laugh a little……it helps.

    :)

  • Reply Ellie January 21, 2015 at 7:55 am

    Love the pic Aaron. Hang in there.
    Ellie

  • Reply Robert Neeleman January 20, 2015 at 2:59 pm

    Reading your blog every day brother. We miss you on the field brother. I love your mindset man. You’re going to inspire so many people. It’s obvious that you are being put through this process to show other people that it is possible to beat with the right mindset.

  • Reply Kristin January 20, 2015 at 11:17 am

    Love it…reframe thoughts. Our happiness Trudy depends on what is in our minds, thoughts

  • Reply Kristin January 19, 2015 at 10:22 am

    Re New, Re Vive, Re Store, Re Born

  • Reply Karen Zavora January 18, 2015 at 9:39 pm

    Hi Aaron,

    Just a note to say that you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Your blog has inspired me and I know it will touch many.

    Sending you much love,

    Karen

  • Reply Kristin January 18, 2015 at 7:49 pm

    “Namaste'”
    “The light, the Divine and the teacher in me….honors and reflects the same
    light, Divine and the teacher in you.”

    Dad and Barb send big country love from the ranch and my loves Quinn & Alec say “hurry and get better so we can do hide and go seek on the ranch again!! You were the best challenge ever!” They send much love too! xoxo

    Love you
    K

  • Reply melissa January 18, 2015 at 7:22 pm

    Aaron, your blogs are so great to read!
    For as long as I’ve known you (37 years) your “can do” attitude has always allowed you to accomplish everything you set out to do….including belting out an awesome Peter Cetera solo! I know this is your toughest fete by far, but I have no doubt you will conquer cancer as well!! I love you

    Hugs,
    Melissa

  • Reply Julie Frans January 18, 2015 at 7:20 pm

    Aaron. I am thinking of you every day. The thought of you reminds me to live every day to it’s fullest, to never settle, and to go after the things I want to do but “don’t have time.” Your life is meaningful and your voice impactful- you are an angel to those around you- showing courage, faith, hope, and reminding us that every day is important. I am sending you, April, and your family all the love in the world, and I have so much faith that you will emerge like a hero from this life obstacle. Know that you are thought of every day- by friends old and new, near and far. You WILL beat this- and we will be with you the whole way. Hugs, The Frans Family

  • Reply Alisha Wilson January 18, 2015 at 3:32 pm

    Hey Aaron – I think of you every day. You are so amazing and a true inspiration to all of us. Your writing is remarkable and I’m sure will be developed into a novel or a movie. You are strong and determined and I know you will have success in beating this. We are here for you and will do anything we can to help support your company.
    Warmest……Alisha, Marriott Marquis

  • Reply Mike morse January 18, 2015 at 8:04 am

    I dig that you are making declarations about your faith & choosing to allow your consciousness to be shaped through this time. Gods spirit is present to all, may this declaration of mine be meaningful to you Aaron. Your thoughts contine to illustrate your depth & reveal more about you deepest soul.

  • Reply Christina Chevallier January 18, 2015 at 7:31 am

    Hi Aaron! Your blog is incredible. Your spirit is amazing. I just chuckled at your example of saying “I love you” to the Chipotle guy for giving you extra avocado. Glad to hear that you still love avocados. Keep up your positive attitude.

  • Reply Lydia January 17, 2015 at 3:18 pm

    Hi Aaron,
    I have had the pleasure of teaching with your mom for a long time and getting to know your family, special events, accomplishments, funny vingnettes, etc. through our daily interactions. Sharing about our families was very special. I always knew that you had a strong, persistent, resilient side to you coupled with a tremendous ability to find humor in tough situations. You have endless creativity, inventiveness and most of all, love of life. Thank you for sharing your thoughts….I love you too and send you all the positive energy my brain and soul can hold.

  • Reply Kristin January 17, 2015 at 10:50 am

    I believe the strongest souls surrounded by the brightest lights are the chosen ones to bring understanding, love, compassion, knowledge, unity, faith and strength to us all.

  • Reply Sari Reznick January 17, 2015 at 7:46 am

    Hi Aaron, just caught up on your posts. glad you’ll be out of the hospital soon. Good news! Maybe I’ll see you soon if you can have visitors.

    Sari

  • Reply Sally King January 17, 2015 at 6:02 am

    Hi Aaron, your blogs are so inspiring. I have also had to face cancer and it sure does make us think about many things. I am so glad you have a great support system, that makes all the difference.
    When things calm down you may like a website called JW.ORG. This is a bible based website that answer our heartfelt questions from the Bible from birth to death and all the joy in between.
    Much love to you and your family.
    Sally King

  • Reply Connie Eitzen January 16, 2015 at 10:52 pm

    A THOUGHT FROM SUE MONK KIDD
    Whenever a crisis whirls into your life remember this: “A crisis is a holy summons to cross a threshold. It involves both a leaving behind and a stepping forward, a separation and an opportunity. . . .Hope lies in waiting calmly. . . God may deliver us somewhere amazing.”

  • Reply Alisa Whitney January 16, 2015 at 4:32 pm

    Hi Aaron. This is Alisa, Cheyne’s mom. I really love reading your blogs. Your attitude is amazing and right on. You are learning so much and I thank you for sharing so much of it with all of us. I think of you often and send positive thoughts and energy your way. I know you feel the love from everyone. I hope it continues to bring you strength and inspiration.

  • Reply Nancy Stevens January 16, 2015 at 2:16 pm

    Thank you Aaron, I read your messages and take them all to heart. I appreciate your way of looking at things. YOU are making a difference in many lives now – and always have. As usual – sending you healing vibes!

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl January 16, 2015 at 12:01 pm

    Aaron, your words are so touching! Fluff and I read your posts together every day. You truly are an amazing person. We remember you as a cute little boy running around in our backyard and in Brookdale Park. Then as an adventure seeking teenager paddling in a raft down the rapids in Colorado. Now we’re getting to know the wonderful son, husband, father, and man that you are. I wish we could help you, but we’re so far away. We send you our love and support.
    Love, Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Ellen January 16, 2015 at 11:56 am

    Okay, I affirm that you should write a book…maybe this is one in the making…because your blogs are delightfully thought provoking and moving. I think they are a refection of the power you have to move yourself into a healing place and to drag others along that may have similar challenges.

  • Reply Steffi Habermann January 16, 2015 at 9:26 am

    XOXO Aaron. Couldn’t wait to come to work this morning to read your new entries; had you on my mind when I was out walking this morning. Sending you lot’s of love and positive energy.

  • Reply Julieta Arroyo January 16, 2015 at 9:22 am

    Cheering you on Aaron! Thank you so much for sharing your incredible story and keeping us updated! Praying for you! Your positivity and strength is so inspiring!

  • Reply Kristin January 16, 2015 at 9:00 am

    BIG Hugs to you and I will continue to donate blood.
    You are always in my prayers and I cant wait to be able to give you a real hug instead of a virtual hug! Keep the faith xoxoxo
    Love you!!
    Kristin

  • Reply Diane January 16, 2015 at 8:41 am

    Hi Aaron, Glad to hear things are going as well as can be expected! Keep up the good work & welcome back to the Hood! I love reading your blogs…..Love You

  • Reply Rita Bottoms January 16, 2015 at 8:26 am

    Hi Aaron…it’s your cousin, Rita, well, really your second cousin…Ida and Dave Berner’s daughter. I’m going thru chemo myself & have found the quote from the Buddha to “abandon all hope and fear” a real inspiration.

    My husband, Tom, and I send you our deepest love and prayers. It’s quite a journey. You’ve got a great spirit and it will serve you well.
    xxxxooooRita

  • Reply Ellie January 16, 2015 at 8:00 am

    “When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. ”

    Attitude is everything and you have a great one.

    Ellie

  • Reply Ellen Claxton January 16, 2015 at 6:56 am

    Hugs.

  • Reply Paula Mayer January 15, 2015 at 5:56 pm

    Hi Aaron,
    Thanks for being so candid and sharing details of your ordeal. Your blog is like a good book that I just can’t put down and I’m a sucker for happy endings so I’m confident you won’t disappoint. You’ll get through this because you’re strong, inspirational, and this world needs you! I’ll look forward to doing makeup and hair for one of your photo shoots again soon and in the meantime I’ll be following your progress via your blog.

  • Reply Jenn January 15, 2015 at 3:05 pm

    Aaron,

    It’s always a pleasure working with you and your True team. While I know you have an arduous journey ahead of you, I’m sure you’ll kick cancers ass ;) I’ll keep following your blog and of course, be sending prayers your way. If there is ever anything I can do for you, your family, or your True team please let me know.

    Jenn Mobley
    Eventity

  • Reply Heidi January 15, 2015 at 2:38 pm

    I wanted to read your blog to see how you were doing and keep updated on your journey. What I ended up receiving was so much more. Thank you for the inspiration, the new view on the day and the help to see the pure beauty of our lives.

  • Reply Ellie January 15, 2015 at 7:17 am

    “Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a gift and not giving it.”

    Thank you for sharing
    Ellie

  • Reply Brett January 14, 2015 at 10:39 pm

    We may have had limited conversation but I am grateful to have met you and want to thank you for sharing your story and feelings…now go kick Cancers ass!

  • Reply Shannon Boman January 14, 2015 at 9:06 pm

    Hi Aaron! Thinking about you so much these days! You are such an inspiration and have inspired the world through your lens and now through your life. I will be sending out lots of prayers for your family and for you and just know that you were such huge party of my wedding day and therefor my life! Give April lots of love for me too- I am sure this is all affecting her immensely. But you two are such a team and I have no doubt you will come out of this together stronger than ever : )

    Lots of Love,

    Shannon Boman

  • Reply kaley kenney January 14, 2015 at 7:28 pm

    Your blog just made me laugh out loud, can’t wait to work another wedding with you!

  • Reply Frank Camean January 14, 2015 at 3:45 pm

    Aaron wrote, “The reality is that none of us on this planet will survive death. We have to learn how to survive life. The unknown is the beauty of life. It’s the adventure. What we don’t know should be celebrated, not feared.” Bud, that is unbelievably well written & couldn’t have been articulated any better. You should frame that. It’s golden and full of enlightenment. You’re becoming the truth serum of the day.

    • Reply salunisca January 16, 2015 at 12:08 pm

      I agree, that is a QUOTE that should go down in History as one of the greatest Quotes. Really inspiring to live LIFE.

  • Reply Mike morse January 14, 2015 at 11:10 am

    Death is not something to survive, it’s a door way. We will all be invited, but we each will journey the passage uniquely

    • feldster
      Reply feldster January 14, 2015 at 6:37 pm

      Lets not talk death. It just isn’t my focus. I am focused now on life. The death word isn’t in my mindset. Not now. The only words that I have in my Dna at this moment is NOW, TODAY and LIFE. Don’t bury the living even though the intention is to bring Peace and love.

    • Reply Mike Morse Photography January 14, 2015 at 7:47 pm

      Hey Aaron,
      You are totally right and I completely understand where you are coming from. That last comment has been my own life philosophy and I understand it might not be helpful. I hope I did not upset you and I really care about you. I hope to be an encouragement to you in your you fight against this disease. Im very inspired by your positive outlook.

      • feldster
        Reply feldster January 14, 2015 at 11:48 pm

        Not upset at all Mike :)I know it is all coming from love and I appreciate it. We all deal with things in our own angles and perspectives. That’s part of what makes the world great.

  • Reply Tiffany Monday January 14, 2015 at 10:32 am

    Aaron,
    My heart goes out to you and your family, and I know you will get through this! You are truly a amazing person, and a inspiration to us all. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, and there is a propose of what you are going though today. Stay strong, and please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you or your family!

    “Stars can’t shine without darkness”

    ~ Tiffany

  • Reply Linda Meade January 14, 2015 at 10:19 am

    “The unknown is the beauty of life”. So true….Thank you!

  • Reply Elizabeth Day January 14, 2015 at 9:05 am

    I love your posts, Aaron. They move me so much and inspire me … I think about them long after I’ve read them, at different points throughout the day. Keep ’em coming, and keep on rocking. Sending good vibes, a huge hug, love, like, and a big smile (because I’m picturing you smiling) :)

  • Reply Ellie January 14, 2015 at 7:01 am

    “People are like tea bags. You find out how strong they are when you put them in hot water.”
    Or in a Mud Castle…..Almost Sharted myself….lol.

    Ellie

  • Reply Tatiana M. January 13, 2015 at 11:01 pm

    Now I MUST follow up with a comment :). I just read your “OMG. WAS THAT A FART OR DID I JUST SHART??” and I was CRYING from LAUGHING. This was the funnies ‘shit’ (appropriate in this case) I have EVER read hehehe. “ever growing mud castle”? REALLY, I mean this is just classic. WOW indeed. and your closing line was just a killer line. “Sometimes it is just taking a good solid WOW”

    Keep writing.

  • Reply Tatiana M. January 13, 2015 at 10:38 pm

    So, just as I am reading “DON’T CRY” from your “The Flood Gates Have Opened” post, all I want to do is CRY. The more I read, the more I want to cry, but then I stop myself. I take a second and I am trying to understand THE WHY I want to cry. Is it from feeling sorry for myself for why I am feeling down now or is it from JOY that I am so grateful for my life and my family, or is it from the JOY that I know YOU? I still don’t know, but one thing I know for sure. This CANCER, has a HUGE purpose and goal to accomplish thru you. You will touch and change many lives for the better.Your posts are just getting better and better. You keep writing from your heart, without any filters, and that is not an easy thing… you lay all your raw feelings and emotions out there, and it is touching me and many others. You always had great points and views on life, but now they are just tremendously powerful.
    My wish for you is that you remain this strong throughout this journey. We do LOVE you.

  • Reply olivia Keil January 13, 2015 at 10:06 pm

    Aaron,
    I met you at KG’s wine tasting birthday a few years ago! I look forward to reading your posts everyday… You are truly inspiring and we can all learn so much from your words! I’ve been praying for you and know you will beat this!
    Olivia Keil

  • Reply Steffi Habermann January 13, 2015 at 2:36 pm

    Aaron…..it’s 2:30pm, I’m in my office and haven’t accomplished a thing today because I have been glued to my screen, reading your blog. First of all; I LOVE YOU, TOO. (Right after I told a couple of co-workers how much I love them and we all had a cute awwww-moment.) We only met each other in person once at the winery (remember?), and we don’t “know each other” well, but enough to say I love you (and your True Family). I’m lost for words at the moment as I’m still processing every single word I have read here. I’m here, you’re there, and we are connected and we will stay connected because I will follow you here as much as I can. Every single year one of my friends or one person I know has been diagnosed with some kind of cancer. The subject is constantly on my mind; different researches running through my mind all the time, different diets, different this, different that. Your journey will become our journey; we are all here with you.
    P.S. Thank you for reminding me to actually be together and talk to each other versus facebook-ing…and oh, how many times have I had a WHOLE conversation by text. Geez.
    P.P.S. I like the bird story. Reminds me of how a friend of mine told me “Steffi, you rush too much. Sometimes you need to stop and listen to the birds.”
    HUGS, Steffi at Orfila Vineyards

  • Reply Terry January 13, 2015 at 1:47 pm

    Aaron,
    Thank you for being so funny, sensitive, inspiring and down right authentic beyond measure! Love, prayers and laughter in your name!
    Take every ounce of inspiration as you are doing and call on us if you need anymore!
    Terry Lowrey
    Your friends at Bernardo Winery!

  • Reply Francesca Savage January 13, 2015 at 12:09 pm

    HI Aaron Music is supposed help fortify your physical health- If we can ever come by and serenade you with some “healthful” and fun “vibrations”- please don’t hesitate to contact us- Some Bach or some Coldplay :-) anytime you need a lift , just drop me an e-mail and we can be there to support you during your fight against this beast-

  • Reply Aizhan January 13, 2015 at 11:36 am

    OK, I am rolling on the floor, laughing out loud while reading “OMG. Was that a fart or did I just shart?” Your writing has some serious WOW factor :) Love, love, love!!!

  • Reply Lauren Crosby January 13, 2015 at 10:41 am

    Big hugs from your friends at the Bali Hai Restaurant in San Diego! (And one of True’s photographed brides!) Sending good thoughts and wishes your way. Come over for a mai tai once you’re feeling better!! :)

  • Reply Diane January 13, 2015 at 9:54 am

    OMG Aaron this was way too funny! Best laugh I had in a long time! Thanks for sharing….The mud castles are going to be hard to get out of my head for awhile! LOL! Never lose your sense of humor…

  • Reply Ellen Claxton January 13, 2015 at 9:39 am

    Hi Aaron,
    Your latest Shart post had me laughing out loud, that and Too much information ;-) I hope you can keep the positivity and humor coming, as I know it will be hard, but it really will be the best medicine. You are an inspiration.I wanted you to know I think of you EVERY day and pray you will get through this. Sending many hugs!!!

  • Reply Rick Valentine January 13, 2015 at 9:37 am

    Thanks for the laugh out loud moment, Aaron. I need to do more of that. I love these posts.

  • Reply Brandi Geisen January 13, 2015 at 9:24 am

    Hi Aaron,
    I’ll start by saying I am not very good at writing my thoughts and feelings, unlike you :)
    I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. Your positivity is amazing and inspiring.
    I believe in the power of positive thinking and know you will beat this. I look forward to the day when I ready in your blog that the cancer is gone.
    I pray nightly with my 5 year old twin boys. You and your family will be in our prayers every night. So, around 9 pm each night just know we are thinking of you, praying for you and sending our positive thoughts your way :)
    I love you too!
    Brandi

  • Reply Kristin January 13, 2015 at 8:41 am

    Aaron,
    You are one of the strongest most confident people I have every met… let me tell you without your help, support, and words of wisdom throughout the time I have known you, I have no idea where I would be today…Thank You for that. Because of this you will be strong and conquer…we all know this, it is just who you are

    Thank you for sharing with everybody, that means a lot
    My thoughts and prayers are with you

  • Reply Pastor Carlos January 13, 2015 at 8:02 am

    Aaron,

    Thank you for your email and your openness. I will pray that you overcome this temporary trial. “Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 ESV

    “But you, take courage! Do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded.” 2 Chronicles 15:7 ESV

    “Seek the Lord while he may be found; call upon him while he is near;” Isaiah 55:6 ESV

    Blessings,

    Pastor Carlos Sales
    http://www.2Wed4Life.com

  • Reply Lisa Storey January 13, 2015 at 7:57 am

    Looking Good Feldster!!! Love your latest pic with April :) Love YOU!

  • Reply Diane January 13, 2015 at 7:51 am

    I am amazed by your writing’s also Aaron! You are quite an amazing young man…Keep up the good work and we are sending you lots of good vibes & stay strong. We Love you Aaron, Diane & Bob

  • Reply Ellie January 13, 2015 at 7:34 am

    Hi Aaron,

    I’ll start with this “Even if you fall on your face, you’re still moving forward.”

    I’ve met you quite a few times over the years at Vendor Mixers and also as I’m heading out after Beautifying my brides. I am always impressed with how your company takes care of the little people like me by sending me a link so I can retrieve photos for my portfolio. Thanks so much for making me feel significant.

    From what I have read so far, all I have to say is you got this handled. Mindset is everything Aaron and you are in the Zone. Keep positive and try and do something everyday that will make you smile.

    Ellie From A New Twist Hair Salon

  • Reply Adrianne Smith January 13, 2015 at 6:41 am

    You truly have a gift for the written (and spoken…duh!) word, Aaron. Thanks for being so candid, so many of us don’t understand what cancer really is. You’re brave and one of the most determined people I’ve ever known. Rally on with your positivity, conquer the enemy….and please let me know if ever you need a thing!! Ride, food, kid assistance…balloon animals, etc.
    Peace & Love, Adrianne Smith

  • Reply Michele coulon January 13, 2015 at 6:29 am

    I am amazed by your writing …one more talent that you have ! Me and my team will be fighting with you ❤️

  • Reply Patricia Coleman January 13, 2015 at 12:22 am

    Hi Aaron. I am reading your Blog from Kenya! I am shocked and saddened to hear of the challenges you are facing and am uplifted and filled with admiration at your willingness to share your deepest feelings, I have no doubt that you will beat your cancer and will keep you in my daily thoughts and prayers.for complete healing in the very near future. Warmest Wishes, Patricia Coleman

  • Reply Carina Lindgren January 12, 2015 at 10:32 pm

    Hi Aaron, Not sure if we have even met, but I know your company’s work, as I have requested photos from our weddings together (I own Flawless Faces, makeup & hair team). I received your email, and read your whole blog with tears streaming down my face. My mom had cancer in Feb, but luckily it was removed and no need for chemo, and so far so good. We were so lucky. Your heartfelt words, and being present and happy with what you have is something I work on daily, and with those words that is how my yoga teacher ended class tonight, so it was so interesting to read your posts when I got home. Wishing you much strength through this intense battle you are facing, and strength to your wife & son. Keeping positive thoughts for you, and I will tell someone I love them tomorrow;)

  • Reply Mike Morse Photography January 12, 2015 at 9:30 pm

    Its an inspiration to hear your heart for life, love, and the faith you posses. You blog reflects a beautiful heart and Im glad I get to take it in. I like these quotes today, “The cracks are where the light gets in,” by Lenard Coen and “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.” Jesus and “You must be the change you wish to see in the world.” Mahatma Gandhi

  • Reply Ed Estes January 12, 2015 at 7:22 pm

    Hi Aaron,
    It’s been over 25 years since I last saw you at your Bar Mitzvah. However, I have kept up with you and your work over the years as I have maintained close contact with your Dad in our almost 35 year friendship. I have always admired how well you captured moments around the posed shots. A favorite was of Bush 41. (It’s probably a Texas thing.)
    I encourage you to keep doing what you are doing- being very verbal and connecting. I just wanted to plug in and let you know I have been reading your words, listening to thoughts and sending you good wishes.
    The other day you wrote about birds and how they don’t worry about anything.
    While I believe in the same God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob as your tradition, I was brought there from a different perspective. There is an old spiritual song about the bird’s life that you have probably never heard. It goes…. “His eye is on the Sparrow, and I know He watches me.”
    Wishing you strength for your battle and best wishes for your recovery.
    Ed Estes

  • Reply Connie Eitzen January 12, 2015 at 6:12 pm

    Aaron,
    I am thinking about and praying for you daily. Also in my prayers are April, Brandon, your Mom and Dad, Shos and Brian. I will keep in touch with your Mom especially. Your blog is inspiring and motivating. Thank you for your positive attitude. Keeping kicking’ Cancer.

  • Reply Dana (Duffield) Turner January 12, 2015 at 12:04 pm

    Dearest Aaron, we were so unbelievably shocked and saddened when Corey sent our former Del Playa crew your heartbreaking news. Man, how life changes in an instant. I haven’t stopped thinking about or praying for you since. You have such a wonderful outlook and attitude. That will help immensely in this tough battle you’re facing. Thank you for these blog posts about what really matters most in life. Almost all of us need that daily reminder. Lifting you up in prayer, friend. Big big hugs.

  • Reply Mary O'Shea January 12, 2015 at 11:46 am

    Hi Aaron. I’ve been reading your posts and the comments and they uplift me so much and they stop me from feeling sorry for myself over my problems. I have never met you but you are living proof about being connected because each time I read your blog, I feel like I know, admire, understand, even, love you (I do not mean that in a crazy way!). I simply mean that I cannot help but love the heroic way you are triumphing over your illness and you just inspire me! So what am I doing reading your blog if I do not “know” you? Well, I know Shoshana, your sister, and she sent me the link. I’ve worked with her for the past few years now and she is one amazing teacher and person. Runs in your family… Finally, I think the whole world should read your posts whether or not they know you. We ALL have so much to learn from you!

  • Reply Kristina Chartier January 11, 2015 at 10:26 pm

    Hello Aaron.

    Your thoughts about different types of crying are so true. When my mom beat a tough cancer 8 years ago, her doctors told her that at least 50% of her healing should be attributed of her unusually positive attitude that gave her body the strength to heal. She never felt sorry for herself and was determined to win just like you are. I hear her voice in your words and wish you well.

    Sharing your insights and feelings is a gift to the people surrounding you.

  • Reply Sean MacLeod January 11, 2015 at 9:44 am

    Hey, Aaron. Sean MacLeod in Solana Beach here. I am returning the love you are sharing, both to you, April, Brandon and your family and team. Yes, we are all connected though that can be tough to remember as we race ahead to the ‘some places important’ in our lives. Thank you for so sensitively and warmly sharing your journey and your thoughts, and reminding us to slow down and be grateful, for whatever it is. I know that we all treasure the insight and emotions you are bringing forth, and collectively send love, light and loving, and energy to you. My very best. Plus, we miss you all here on Cedros! Sean

  • Reply Nancy Stevens January 11, 2015 at 8:59 am

    Aaron, my heart is with you and your family. I’ve been a fan of yours for years because of your photography talent. When I needed a little ad for San Diego Style Wedding magazine I came to you – of course! And of course you rocked it! Complimentary as well! I could not have been prouder of that little ad. I love to read every single word you write. I’m very familiar with what you are going thru because Cancer has touched our family. I’m so proud of you! You are a shining light even in these days that can be hard to shine. You are delivering messages that we all need to hear and be aware of. Thank you Thank you Thank you for your courage and strength and for taking the time to help all those around you! You are now our teacher! XOXO

  • Reply Sarah Shine January 11, 2015 at 12:28 am

    Hi Aaron-

    I suppose it’s been 20 years? Maybe 100? Since UC high school days. I saw your news and blog link from Aaron W- and wow, your optimism and honesty are very powerful. Of course it’s been a loooong time since we’ve seen each other, but for some reason your response to this new diagnosis does not surprise me. It is very inspiring and quite a reality check for those of us not in your shoes – or hospital grade non-skid socks.

    I wish you a smooth course, and ease with the inevitable bumps in the road. It sounds like you have an incredible support system, and that is great.

    All my best. You will be in my thoughts.

    Sarah (Bernstein) Shine

  • Reply nikki conrad January 10, 2015 at 5:21 pm

    Hi Aaron, my name is Nikki. You don’t know me but I love you back! You will be in my prayers. You are an awesome inspiration to all!

    • feldster
      Reply feldster January 12, 2015 at 8:16 pm

      Thank you so much Nikki. I really appreciate the support!

  • Reply Lisa Williams January 10, 2015 at 1:52 pm

    Hi Aaron, you probably don’t remember me, but I used to work with April at San Diego Magazine back in the day. In fact, I was at the shoot where the two of you first met. I am so sorry to hear about what you’re going through. But from one cancer survivor to another, I can tell you that you WILL get through this. Your attitude, your openness and the support and love you’re receiving from your friends and family is exactly what you need to make it through this battle. Soon you’ll be able to look at it as just another bump in the road of life. One that will make you a stronger man on the other side. Sending my thoughts and prayers to you and April.

  • Reply Carrie January 10, 2015 at 11:39 am

    Hi Aaron,

    I feel the need to tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your experience with all of us. So many of my childhood memories include your family and I think of you all often. Please know you are a part of our daily thoughts and prayers and we’ll continue to follow along as you kick cancer to the curb!

    We love you all!
    Carrie (Hesseltine) Stratton

  • Reply Dianne Park January 10, 2015 at 10:23 am

    Aaron,
    I am a friend of your Mom & Dad. Laura and I were teaching partners before we retired. I don’t know if we ever had the pleasure of meeting, but I “know you” through your strong presence in their home and through the love they share for you. You certainly are not alone in this battle. We support Laura and Ed and the entire family as you deal with this. Keep writing, it will keep you sane.
    Jimmy Dean is an odd person to quote, but he said, “I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” Your positive attitude and courage are an inspiration… and you WILL reach that destination!
    Best Wishes,
    Dianne Park

  • Reply Judith Zander January 10, 2015 at 9:49 am

    Hi Aaron,

    Thank you for the tears of love that I’m shedding now after reading your blog posts. I only “know” you from stories shared by my son (Paul Douda), and have always admired what you have accomplished in your work. You are now firmly planted in my heart and I am grateful for you.

    xo
    Judy

  • Reply Danelle Parker January 10, 2015 at 9:46 am

    Sweetie, look into Ojibwa herb tea. Here is the link. Said to bring people back from Stage 4, been around for over 100 years, but FDA won’t approve. Cancer is a money maker. Wishing you all the best and prayers to you!

    https://www.ojibwatea.com/

  • Reply Rachel Peniche January 9, 2015 at 10:06 pm

    Aaron,
    I want to help! I haven’t had cancer myself but have several friends and family members who have. I’m on the Board of LLS and I can help connect you to services and resources when you are ready. Reach out to me when you are ready. I’d love for you to share who your doctor is. I’m praying for you everyday. Like LLS’s slogans “cancer stops with me.” And Someday is TODAY! Xoxo

  • Reply Carrie Healy January 9, 2015 at 6:35 pm

    Aaron, I just read your latest blog and thought I would tell you that I love you and your whole family. You are all such wonderful people and I feel like a better person for knowing you. Thank you for reminding all of us of what is really important in life.

  • Reply Laurie Sharrigan January 9, 2015 at 5:47 pm

    Aaron, it’s Laurie Sharrigan. Friend of your Mother, Father, Aunt Rachel and Kenneth. I haven’t seen you in years but hear about you and your family through your Dad. I saw your blog from Kenneth’s facebook page. You are very inspiring about your approach to cancer. Remember cancer is a virus that is conquerable. Not to sound too corny but I believe in visualizing. I will send you lots of healing light. I wish you an easy journey in your battle over this Stupid virus.

    Laurie

  • Reply Lori Starr January 9, 2015 at 4:51 pm

    Aaron, a mutual friend of Lisa’s sent me this blog. I met you very briefly a few years ago. I don’t know you, but you sound like a fighter and your blog is very compelling. Thank you for sharing this with everyone. What you’re saying is making me think about life in a different way. Again, I don’t know you but wish you and your family the best! Lori

  • Reply Pam Matteoni January 9, 2015 at 3:44 pm

    Hey there Aaron. I Love You!!! I know we only met once, but what a magical time that was. What a great time we had getting to know each other in Turks and Caicos and what an awesome friendship you and April have developed with Daniel and Jessica. That makes my heart happy.
    Thanks for sharing your journey with all of us. I can imagine that it’s not easy, but you are doing it with grace, charm, wit and joy!!!! Mike and I will be praying for you and claiming a total healing in your life. I’m attaching an article about a really close friend of mine. He just experienced a miracle in his life a few days ago…… they really do happen. http://www.pressdemocrat.com/news/3337326-181/new-year-new-heart-for

    Stay strong my friend and we’ll be sending lots of prayers and positive energy from Reno to you :)

    Pam and Mike

  • Reply Mike Flores January 9, 2015 at 2:11 pm

    Aaron,

    Your mindset and heart pushing forward with this is by far, spectacular.
    When i was going through mine I was told to not let it change me, to in fact let it mold me. #TeamFcancer. Your on the right track boss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, that you may continue to find joy, happiness, and a deeper love. I’m enjoying your blog, it brings me back to when I was receiving my treatment and going through, what I refer to as my season of growth. Hanging with you in AZ were some fun memories. Just that little bit of time with you I got a great idea of who you are. Your great man Aaron.
    Sincerely,
    Your sluggo brotha,
    Mike Flores

  • Reply sarah p nguyen January 9, 2015 at 1:48 pm

    “you give but little when you give of your possessions. it is when you give of yourself that you truly give”. – Khalil Gibrahn. You do this. every. single. day. and your creativity and vision have made an impact on thousands of people. and now you will do the same with your new challenge. keep your head up… everybody’s on your side.

  • Reply Stephanie Rose Events January 9, 2015 at 1:37 pm

    Hey Aaron – As a fellow cancer survivor, I know it gets crazy and overwhelming sometimes, and then you adjust to a new normal, and then it gets crazy and you do it all over again. It’s OK to cry – there’s just no wallowing in self pity! I kept a blog through my cancer treatment and it was really therapeutic. Plus it saved me from having the same conversation over and over :) I’m here if you need anything. Sending you prayers for strength for you and your family!
    Kristin, Stephanie Rose Events

  • Reply Jamie Vosacek January 9, 2015 at 1:20 pm

    Hi Aaron,

    I heard the news from Janet. Can’t escape Fremonsters :) I’m wishing you much courage in this fight.

    One piece of advice my coach gave me years ago: “Row your own race”. You are only competing with yourself, to be a better athlete, to become healthy, to be a better person. A second piece of rowing knowledge gained was “mental toughness”; I think you already have this down from what I read on your blog. Winning is 99% mental toughness. Because it is the only thing that can get you through THE WALL. When you HIT THE WALL and every part of you wants to give up, DON’T. Beat the wall.

    Jamie V.

  • Reply Aizhan January 9, 2015 at 11:44 am

    Aaron, I am crying right now as I am reading your last blog. These are tears of LOVE for you, my friend. Thinking about you every single day.

  • Reply Shoshana Ganster January 9, 2015 at 11:15 am

    Words cannot express how proud I am of you! You are inspiring so many people by your thoughfulness through sharing your journey. Every time I read one of your posts I am reminded of how lucky I am to have you as my brother and to have such a strong family unit. You have such an enlightening outlook on things right now and so many people will benefit and learn from you. Thank you for being strong enough to express yourself through your writing. I look forward to reading your thoughts because they are inspiring and make me love you even more! April is truly a gift to our family because of her love and support for you and for all of us. I LOVE YOU BOTH!

  • Reply Irish January 9, 2015 at 11:14 am

    Aaron,
    I really think your last post was what we all needed to hear. I cried reading it. I know we have never met, but I thank you for taking me on as part of your team of second shooters. I love working for True and I am praying for this journey you are on. May the pain be minimal and the love and revelations of life be plenty. You have a great team on your side and I am excited to see you beat this! Thanks for everything.
    Irish Grzanich

  • Reply Jessica Merideth January 9, 2015 at 10:40 am

    Aaron your strength and positiveness inspire me!!!! we are behind you 100% xoxo

  • Reply Meghan Whitney January 9, 2015 at 10:10 am

    I love you Aaron and April!! <3

  • Reply Rachel Newstat Weinstein January 9, 2015 at 10:02 am

    Today’s post really hits me in all the right ways, and all the ways you just explained. Thank you. This part especially, “Cancer will not beat me and will be my biggest accomplishment yet. It already is heading that way. I’m already a more complete person and I feel others around me being more fullfilled as well. Lets all find the good in everything. Even in this Cancer that I am battling. I love you all from every part of my soul. I cry amazing tears for you tonight, and all that you have given to me in my life. I have never been more alive.”

    And, cousin Aaron- I LOVE YOU.

  • Reply Stefanie Muse January 9, 2015 at 10:00 am

    Aaron I woke up this morning feeling sorry for MYSELF. Thank you for the slap in the face. Please keep writing,
    you are inspiring so many people. I love you and admire you. We are all here for you and your family.

  • Reply Diane Sutke January 9, 2015 at 9:53 am

    WOW AARON!!! I Love reading your blogs! Love You

  • Reply Tina Marino January 9, 2015 at 9:45 am

    Your forthright yet optimistic attitude is refreshing, and admirable, Aaron. Many would just crumble and lie down with what you are going through. I am glad you are not – not just for you, but for those you love. You are in my prayers. You keep on truckin’ on your end and I will keep Uncle Sam at bay. :) Tina

  • Reply shaynadana January 9, 2015 at 9:41 am

    I was treated for breast cancer, & did my share of crying. Sometimes, three years after treatment, I still do. I feel guilty sometimes, like I had “cancer light”, because despite surgery, radiation & chemotherapy, I felt as though I did not experience things as badly as some other people. Your feelings are valid, but I applaud & honor your decision to find joy & love instead of wallowing in the sorrow. I had to make the same decision, & am a grateful thriver & survivor instead of a victim.

    I have a Facebook page, Dana’s Journey Through Breast Cancer, with positive affirmations & gratitude (most of the time). I also have a CaringBridge blog. I found funny movies & TV shows to be helpful in keeping up my spirits, & discovered how many people loved & cared for me.

    You write beautifully, & I take inspiration from your journey. God bless you.

  • Reply Rick Valentine January 9, 2015 at 9:36 am

    Beautifully written, Aaron. Challenge accepted. Please keep writing, sharing, going deeper and feeling and experiencing everything. What a gift so much clarity must be. I, too, have cried more in the past few days than in the past few years. In fact, I have cried reading every one of your posts….except the masturbation one, but laughed out loud, which is close enough.

    Much love and always here,
    Rick

  • Reply Allyson January 8, 2015 at 10:11 pm

    Read: Pick up the book “Shrinkage” by Bryan Bishop. It’ll make you laugh, cry, but mostly INSPIRE. I can see you being a survivor like Bryan is.

    Watch: Drunk History – It’s hilarious as heck and educational. How can you go wrong?

    Write: Keep writing. You’ve got an audience here. We support you, and the least you can do to pay us back is letting us know how you’re going to come out of this victorious!

  • Reply Steve and Elizabeth Wampler January 8, 2015 at 10:10 pm

    Ok, you,

    Hi, long time no talk.
    Aaron, about this journey you’re on. Hello.

    I want to be as real with you as you’ve been as you’ve written in this time since you’ve learned you have cancer.
    You resonate with me. What you wrote, the realism, the practicality and awe and possible dread and up-for-it-ness of you. You resonate with me.

    I just want to root for you through this road. I will pray and hope and wish to see you as an old, old, old, old wrinkly, crotchety man. I will. I hope you retrieve those baby makers from that spank bank, and that those little new humans learn all they will from what you are learning this very minute in your life. I hope you see your pretty wife huge with your new child/children, and you can comfort her as she is comforting you now.

    I have never been on your journey, but that I’m sorry fate picked you, but I also think you have a wisdom and knowing that has somehow prepared you with clear, open eyes and a wisdom that can keep you ahead of the trials of the year ahead. You have already coached and helped people around you treat you and help you though to the other end of this shit of a time you’re facing. Bravo.

    I hope you know and hear and either learn or remember anew that JOY IS MEDICINE. So is hilarity. Right?

    I hope for you. I hope and I hope and hope. That’s it. Sorry you’re gonna get so sick and tired. I have a sense about your endurance, though. I have the feeling that you’ve gained strength for this your whole life, and you will have that phenomenal story to tell others at the finish line.
    You have this, Aaron. You have this, Aaron,. Don’t quit , please, you have a lot to do with what you’re going to learn.

    I love you. We love you, Stephen and I. You are good and you are strong, and people look to you and need you. You need to lead. You have a lot to do. I just know you do. You’re going to be the guy who lives through the story. The rough, hard story. I feel compelled to tell you that I feel that in you. In your message, in your knowing……

    Go do this with so many of us standing next to you or just beyond your bedside while you rest, endure then recover. Those closest to you and those of us, like Stephen and I , who are maybe a bit further away, but SO rooting for you so deeply none the less.

    GO DO THIS!!!!!! GO DO THIS, AARON! COME ON! Let’s ALL celebrate you through it and mostly when all is said and done. Here’s to your repetitive, on-going clean bills of health and birthdays and milestones and old, old crotched-e-ness.

    Go get through this bad boy, we’re with you and rooting hard core!
    Team Aaron!

    Hugs to our friend, you!

    Steve and Elizabeth Wampler

  • Reply Sarah January 8, 2015 at 5:02 pm

    You are an amazing person, who will continue to do amazing things! This will only be a chapter of the long life that’s ahead of you!!! So many prayers for you and your family. Thank you for letting us into your world; I look forward to your future updates.

  • Reply Rita January 8, 2015 at 4:02 pm

    I read your blog and you truly are an amazing writer with so much insight! I was completely stunned when I heard about your rare condition but know you will fight this all the way.

    Stay positive and know you are loved on so many different levels:)

    Kindly,
    Rita
    Sr Catering Sales Manager
    San Diego Marriott Del Mar

  • Reply Neil Torr January 8, 2015 at 11:03 am

    Okay, Aaron, that’s not RIGHT! I was reading your last “TMI” post and laughing out loud! Not only will you BEAT Cancer, but you might think about adding Stand Up to your repertoire in the future…

  • Reply Diane Sutke January 8, 2015 at 8:40 am

    Went down to visit with your Mom & Dad yesterday to give them Hugs & tell them what an incredible son they have. We watched you grow up & become this amazing person. Your an inspiration to us all Aaron! Keep kicking A$$. Love from Diane & Bob

  • Reply Silvia January 8, 2015 at 7:44 am

    Hello. You do not know me. I work with and am friends with your sister. I came upon your wall through FB. I am praying for you and your family daily. Your blogs are truly an inspiration. I look forward to the emails that tell me that there is an update on your page. Stay strong and FIGHT!

  • Reply Sara Miller January 7, 2015 at 3:45 pm

    Aaron, I was so surprised and saddened to learn of your illness today. I hope you stay strong and get well ASAP!

  • Reply Trina January 7, 2015 at 2:49 pm

    Your positive spirit and take on this diagnosis is amazing and inspirational. I look forward to hearing that you’ve beat Cancer. Your blog is such a good reminder to all of us on what really matters in life. I’ll be sending prayers for you and your family as you get through this together.

  • Reply luz cardenas January 7, 2015 at 4:01 am

    hi my name is Luz I am in remission for leukemia I go to ucsd to get checked .my nurse is Elaine and my dr is Dr Ball. you are in the best place .and i know you will get better ..if you have any question email me if you want. i hope you have a nice day

  • Reply Lowell Tindell January 7, 2015 at 1:02 am

    Aaron, your courage and strength is impressive. Thank you for sharing your story with such honesty. It is a perfect reminder for all of us that it’s the little, simple things that count. Like a hug or a smile from a loved one. I’m here if there is anything I can do to help.

  • Reply David Weiner January 6, 2015 at 11:40 pm

    Aaron, I am so sorry to hear about this, but your words and actions are inspiring. I have no doubt that this positivity will help you beat this and count this as another learning experience in your life. I will include you in my prayers, if only to ensure that you’ve got all your bases covered :)

    All the best to you and your family.

  • Reply Chris Roberts January 6, 2015 at 11:01 pm

    Wow Aaron words cannot express how I feel right now! You are and have always been such a powerful center of optimism and positivity and I know that through that amazing mindset you will destroy what is in your path! I cannot wait to hear the story of your success as it will surely be an inspiration to many. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Now go kick some a–!!

  • Reply Dalice Huffman January 6, 2015 at 10:46 pm

    My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend. May you stay strong and fight this like The “True” Awesome, Strong Person that you are. You will survive this Aaron …I know you will.

    Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. It has made me see a new light and appreciate life even more than I already do.

    Anything I can do to help…It will be my true pleasure. My gift back to you for all you did for me.

    Stay strong, be positive, keep your head up and keep writing ….

    Much Love Always – Dalice and Dylan xoxo

  • Reply Rudy & Marcy January 6, 2015 at 8:38 pm

    Our thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family, Aaron. Your writing is very inspirational. We especially like the thought about finding happiness in every day.

    Your Optimistic Outlook will serve you well as you move forward and past the challenge before you. You have been amazing in everything you have accomplished in your life. You will continue to amaze and inspire as you move forward!

  • Reply dave mann January 6, 2015 at 8:01 pm

    Aaron, Dave Mann here(Patriot Roofing)…I am sorry to have learned about this and I am inspired by your attitude. Interestingly, I have had cancer twice…hodgkins once and lymphoma once, unrelated. Also, we live in CO now…you live in Denver? Let me know if I can be a sounding board or reference point, we live in the cancer world due to all of our friends and loved ones affected and have lots of cancer support references. All my best to you and boldly go!!!! Dave

  • Reply Fluffy and Sheryl January 6, 2015 at 4:53 pm

    We want you to know that you are in our hearts and thoughts every day. You are so positive, upbeat, and strong. We have such wonderful memories of the times we spent in New Jersey, New York City, San Diego, and San Francisco with your mom, dad, you, and Shoshy. Horseback riding in Utah was especially fun with you, Tim, and your mom and dad! On a future trip to New York/ New Jersey, we’d love to see you again and meet April and Brandon.
    Love,
    Fluffy and Sheryl

  • Reply Connie Kaplan January 6, 2015 at 4:16 pm

    Aaron, You are on my prayer list…I am a friend of Shoshanna and Shawn…Connie

  • Reply Susan Foster Nussbaum January 6, 2015 at 3:52 pm

    Keep on Keepin’ On Aaron. We are with you on this journey and will be CELEBRATING with you when it’s behind you. Sending continued love and prayers. You got this kiddo!!!

  • Reply Tara January 6, 2015 at 2:59 pm

    Aaron, it hasn’t even been one day that I have known about how you are doing and all of my friends and family are sending you positive thoughts and prayers. You are inspiring and it continues to be a pleasure to know and work with you. Cheers to the Aaron I know with all your hutzpah as your journey continues!!:)

  • Reply Rose Vitina January 6, 2015 at 2:48 pm

    Your post today was so lovely. You are a good writer. I send you and your beautiful family all of my positive energy.

  • Reply Aaron W. January 6, 2015 at 2:32 pm

    You have the AMWs on your team!

  • Reply Devra Brukman Schwartz January 6, 2015 at 2:20 pm

    Aaron, you are truly an inspiration. Sending you good vibes and healing thoughts, and wishing you and your family continued strength.

  • Reply Elizabeth Day January 6, 2015 at 12:16 pm

    You’re rocking it, Aaron. And inspiring us along the way. Thank you for writing and sharing — you’re authenticity moves me, makes me think, challenges me, and is one of the most refreshing things I’ve read in a long time. Sending tons of love and positive energy …

  • Reply Lisa Storey January 6, 2015 at 11:49 am

    Keep on keeping on! Aaron, you’re loved and supported through this ~ enjoy the blessings of family and friends, and the little triumphs each and every day! Love you!

  • Reply Kara January 6, 2015 at 10:21 am

    Inspiring, amazing, uplifting, and of course a little funny are the words that come to mind after reading your first post. Just awesome Aaron.

  • Reply Cindy and Wes January 6, 2015 at 8:55 am

    Though we have never met, my husband and I met your sister 14 years ago in Fiji and we have kept in touch ever since. Please know that we are rooting for you! Thank you for sharing your story. Too often, people let the little obstacles in life overshadow what really matters. Now you are facing a big obstacle and the positive way you are tackling it will be an inspiration to all. Good luck. Know that we are all sending positive thoughts your way.

  • Reply Kathryne "Nip" Louzek January 6, 2015 at 6:38 am

    You are receiving blessings, Aaron! The first one was the day you went to urgent care…don’t want to think what might have happened if you had continued to stay at home with the “flu.” The aggressive course your doctors have decided to take with your treatment is another blessing. I pray for many more blessings!

  • Reply Donna Gonzalez January 6, 2015 at 12:14 am

    Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference !!! Because of your attitude you are going to beat this cancer !!!! Wishing you all the positive thoughts and best wishes we can !!!!! The Gonzalez Family

  • Reply Tracy Zemke January 5, 2015 at 11:49 pm

    You are such an amazing man, so talented, and so brave. Thank you for share this with all of us, we can all learn about life and the little things we should remember every day.

  • Reply lisa hodnet January 5, 2015 at 10:30 pm

    from another photographer who was dx with hodgkin’s lymphoma 10 years ago – i can honestly tell you that you have already beaten cancer. Your attitude is amazing. Your writing is real – so real i felt like i was back in the rocking chair holding my newborn again between the day that i had my biopsy and the day that we went to the oncologist. I don’t remember much, but i know i sat there in a haze for a few days. Much love to you <3 I will be hanging out watching and praying.

  • Reply Allison Powers January 6, 2015 at 3:56 am

    Please watch this movie and look into learning Transcendental Meditation. Will change your life.
    https://www.theconnection.tv
    http://www.tm.org/

  • Reply Alan Precourt January 6, 2015 at 3:22 am

    We, of course, love you. But you knew that. But it doesn’t change anything to say it again.

    We’re with you all the way.

  • Reply Jim Selby January 6, 2015 at 2:28 am

    Don’t be afraid of moving slowly, only be afraid of standing still! Words I live by Arron, my heart goes out to you. You are a strong man, and I know you will keep moving. Your family is like no other, the support system is amazing. I found that out over 20 years ago at Thanks Giving with your uncle! One dinner I will Never forget. Please know I am fighting for you too. Your family means a great deal to me, and will be there anyway I can. peace and love my friend!

  • Reply Shoshana Ganster January 6, 2015 at 2:22 am

    I love you little brother. ! You are going to inspire so many people! Now go kick some ass

  • Reply Sari Reznick January 6, 2015 at 2:05 am

    Aaron, I hope your extended visit at UCSD Thorton Hospital is as comfortable as it can be. Take care. You are in the best hands!

  • Reply Rachel Newstat Weinstein January 6, 2015 at 2:01 am

    I just feel extra blessed to be related to you. I feel like you aren’t giving anyone an opportunity to feel bad, but just to cheer you on. Thank you for that. You and your family are definitely not alone. We are truly here for you, cousin.

  • Reply Mary O'Shea January 5, 2015 at 10:37 pm

    Thank you for your beautiful attitude and your honest, inspiring way of handling Cancer. I cannot believe the clarity you have after only nine days. I hear so much faith in your words.